starsovermyhead reblogged
SUPERNATURAL
01.01 – Pilot
#this is what i always come back to when i see people say dean wishing for his dad back in 'lebanon' was ooc#or when they say things like 'why would dean want to be around john? why would he want him back? why would he still love him?'#the answer is fairly simple and it's been there since day one:#because he REMEMBERS#because for him there was a before and an after#because he had a home once and there will always be a part of him that just wants to go home (@laurelwinchester)
#dean and john#dean winchester#john winchester#also familial love very rarely is straight-cut#it's messy and ugly#and makes you wish for connection and approval from the people you know are bad for you#and you keep loving them while they stab you in the heart#because they are part of you and you of them