Intro!

Hi! I'm Saint. 30's, they/them. This band ruined my life in '22 and brought me back to fanfiction which hadn't been a Thing for me since high school. I'm really enjoying being back in it. You can check my AO3 page right here.

I'm the asshole who's tried to make the name Aeon a thing, and you can read that manifesto here. One time I got too high and turned straight for a second and now I'm an Imperator/Dew truther.

My ask box is always open, for anon as well, and you are more than welcome to drop a request- please, please note that I have around ~300 unfilled requests. I tend to just open and scroll and fill whatever I see. If I haven't filled yours, it isn't an intentional slight, and if you drop one, it might take a while to get to.

I am completely open and nonjudgemental towards kinks, and even if it's something I've never written before, I'm pretty willing to put my best foot forward and give it a shot. At this point I've written stuff from feet to diapers, and I think kink exploration is great, so don't be shy. Dubcon, noncon, other weird stuff, LFG. With that said,

Will not write: Age regression, sounding, emeto/scat, food/feederism, x reader, giving characters health issues/disorders/disabilities, anything regarding menstruation, pregnancy (though breeding as a concept is fine). Het usually grosses me out, but I'll consider that case by case. Somno is case by case depending on how it's used.

I read tarot and will do random one card draws for people. If you want something in depth, I offer dummy cheap three card and more involved readings on my Etsy, if you're interested. I will always keep my prices low on that because I think tarot is helpful and don't want cost to be a barrier. Otherwise, stay tuned and wait for the sign up posts to show up! My ask box is always open for questions regarding the process of reading tarot and individual card questions, and questions about astrology.

I don't bite hard unless you ask nicely. /suggestive eyebrow wiggle.

I'm on the other side of the world right now!!))) But yes. Tobias pls

Tobias is gonna look like the crypt keeper when this tour is done

THANK YOU!!!

This is a very kind thing to say. I'm working dummy hard but loving it. Thank you. ♡

Two things:

The first, if you feel like you needed to be loved more by that person and were not receiving what you needed, you were never going to be given what you needed. You could, perhaps, be given more enticing breadcrumbs to be strung along. There is no healthy relationship that is highlighted by "I know they hurt me, but..."

None. There are none. This is not to say what you felt isn't real; I have no doubt you had love for this person. But there is no TRULY LOVING relationship that comes with stipulations like that.

The second, and what I hope you pay most attention to:

I'm in a different time zone than you, and I am in the future. Tomorrow turns out okay! The sun shines, Earth is still spinning, and things are going really good here in the future.

Everything weird with your day turns out just fine tomorrow. Trust me. When you get here, you'll see.

Tumblr is very slow here for me, but I'll be around when I can. ♡

New Heaven New Earth, Swiss/Aeon, Explicit

New Heaven, New Earth

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Swiss/Aeon

Contains: Swiss being into being the first more than he thought, Aeon being more trouble than expected, anal sex, virginity kink, a lot of teasing and a healthy dose of rimming.

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“His enthusiasm is contagious and Swiss wants to ease him into things, he does. Aeon seems to disagree with such a conservative approach, and getting fingered is only enough for so long, which ends up being not very long at all. Three entire hookups that don’t even see him working more than two fingers in and Swiss, for all of his excitement at being able to feel him inside with more, can’t say he feels that’s enough. “When are you gonna put it inside me?” Aeon asks, rubbing Swiss’s wet head over his lips, nestled between his legs and looking up at him through long lashes while he gives him the most achingly drawn-out head. Or, Enthusiasm is a helluva drug.

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Read on AO3!

I sure do. There's a whole world out there of people who will meet you and think you're the greatest thing, and who will get starry-eyed when they see you and fall head over heels in love.

If things seem lonely right now, focus on making yourself someone you'd wanna date- and by that I mean explore all of your interests. Do things that make you happy, that bolster your skills (professionally or personally!), and allow you to live an authentic life riddled with joy. The more you focus on doing whatever you can to make yourself happy, the more opportunity you give people a chance to see you for you. Doesn't matter if the efforts or big, or small- give yourself a chance to smile as much as possible, and give everyone else the opportunity (and blessing) to see a genuine you.

Yep! I was an in house artist doing all the signage for a certain cult of personality grocery store here in the states. About 9.5 years and did that for cafes and businesses on the side.

It serves you but you need to protect yourself a little more than you have been.

It's easy for you to throw caution to the wind and throw yourself into what needs to be done, at any cost. Long hours? Sure! Losing sleep? Why not! Missing meals? I mean, if it has to be done, it has to, right?

How sustainable is that, really?

It's great to step into a role of taking on responsibility and showing others your competency and what you can do- but not at the cost of giving up the responsibility you have to take care of yourself. There has to be a balance here, in order for this to be entirely worth it.

This is a high risk/high reward kind of thing. I see this being incredibly good for you as an outcome, and something that allows you to grow into greater independence and personal power and ability. But in order to di that, you need to be very honest with yourself about if you're being taken advantage of, and if so, what you can do to protect yourself and care for yourself as you walk this road.

And just so you know, the imposter syndrome you're feeling is just that. You're totally capable.