Today was the most insanely busiest day I've had at my job since I've returned to my old position back in September of 2023.
I worked entirely alone today. I was running around in circles all day.
Lines almost nearing out the door, the ding dong door bell 🔔 never stopped going off for even a moment.
Running outside, inside, from the front of the store to the back of the store. Dealing with unhappy customers after the next. And having to hold my pee because I couldn't catch five seconds to go to the bathroom.
I was immensely stressed and overwhelmed. My anxiety was through the roof.
Dealing with a fibro and autoimmune disease flare all at the same time was causing me to want to collapse.
I needed the hours, I needed the money. I kept pushing and pushing 🫸 until night crew finally showed up. Only a half an hour late 😑.
I walked all the way to the opposite side of the parking lot to get to my ride who had been waiting for me for 45 minutes. I felt so bad.
But I made it through the day. Though after lifting all those propane tanks today during a fibro flare, I can't currently lift my arms.
I'm in a tremendous amount of pain. My joints hurt, my muscles hurt. But my brain 🧠 won't shut off so I can sleep. I'm so over stimulated from the day. The stress is eating me alive.
Today has been a dumpster fire 🔥 kind of day.
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