thinking out loud
Recovery is not being cured. Recovery is being functional. Recovery is managing symptoms. Recovery is experiencing symptoms, but not letting them control your life. So while your disorder may not be curable… everything is recoverable.
Recovery would be so much easier if certain target behaviors weren't so ingrained and easy to default to. . .
Recovery is possible.
I went back from swimming with my nephew and took this. Today I am 5'5 130 lbs. Im about to be a senior and I’ve never looked so healthy. I had a horrible ED most of my childhood up into my teenage years.. I had no idea about calories but I new I hated every bit of fat on my body. My recovery didn’t start until the summer between 8th grade and freshman year I was at my lowest weight (I cant remember the exact number) so after gaining (over a year) 25lbs I looked better but I felt worse. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and anxiety and there was really no break from the torture going on in my head. Until a year ago. A wonderful wonderful year ago when I reluctantly began therapy. I have overcome most of my crippling fears but I still have work and my meds do wonders.. So basically this is a body positivity/post to go to therapy or go to a clinic. I’m here for anyone and I’m a great listener so please. If you ever feel low or like you’ll relapse or just hate your body please consider messaging me/sending me a kik (zachsprincess00)
(via ana—mia—recovery)