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That episode that launched thousands of fanfics ✨💕 adorable Cas

Dean will. It's no pie ✨

You will always remember!

Nothing equals the splendor! ✨

Season 7 was so so good! Intense and carry on episode that still brings chills! 7x23

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A tap on the cheek? Really, Dean?

Sam never forgot and never left him off the hook either. His brother whose adoration for Jack since he returned knew no bound and felt the need to show support to the kid had been pestering Dean to treat Jack properly this time.

Dean finishes his coffee and retreats, knowing the Puppy Dog attack is to be pulled in his direction soon.

He left the table with a light snort when Jack and Castiel both entered the kitchen, shoulder passing the angel with a quick smile and turning in towards his room when-

"You're finished with breakfast already, Dean?"

Dean turns behind him a little surprised. Castiel has followed him halfway the corridor looking at him in surprise too, mostly at Dean being surprised-surprised.

"Uh yeah, why?" he fully turns to Cas, both facing each other, stepping closer unconsciously to see clearly. Castiel is giving him that searching look before he blinks, long lashes a little distracting.

"Oh.. I just thought I haven't seen you a lot lately." Castiel frowns when Dean bursts out laughing.

"Cas, we're practically living under one roof! We ate together last night in the kitchen too, what're you on about?"

"I um..." Castiel tilts his head, a little uncertain. Then he slowly says, "I meant... We havent really been talking lately, Dean."

Dean pauses, staring at Cas like they both know he's fucking in love with the angel, but both still trying to avoid it. Dean avoids it at all cost. Cas too. Doesn't mean he's avoidibg his best friend. Dean can't endure that torture.

But he did notice the lack of connection...

"It's okay, you got your hands full what with Jack being back and all..." Dean shrugs like it's nothing. He will never say it outloud. How he's craving for the same attention Cas is giving the kid. Dean likes the kid. Cas is different. And Dean didn't want to dwell on that.

Castiel squints at him again.

"But I feel the need to stay with you still. I think I miss you, Dean."

Dean would have made ugly drowning sounds at the way the angel said it with so much honesty, it makes his heart flutter.

How exactly can he leave Cas hanging like that now? Those blue eyes just begging for his attention now...

"Uh... You-you want to uh... Watch Cool Hand Luke with me in my room later?"

Castiel's whole face beams and it's a sunshine like no other, warming Dean all over. Maybe he shouldn't have said it's his room...

"I'd love to, Dean. I'll meet you there in fifteen minutes." Castiel says with a sincere smile. When Dean locks his door, he can't help his own smile.

Ten minutes and someone knocks on the door. Dean opens, only to find not the angel, but the kid himself.

When Jack stops in front of him to apologize about Mary, Dean just pulls him into a tight embrace.

He doesn't need it. He tells himself. He needs the people he loves alive to live. Especially Jack.

Jack shakes on his arms because this is Jack with his soul now, someone who knows the gravity of being the reason a loved one dies and knows in his heart, he would never be forgiven.

But Dean had no reason to put that burden on someone so pure and who's life goal now seems to be to sacrifice himself.

The boy used by god's machinism for his selfishness. Dean knows how it feels to be used.

He knows what it feels like to be the reason someone he loved dies. Lost a couple of them, many of them because of him and he never forgot the feeling.

He tells Jack Mary forgives him and another minute passed where Jack just cling on Dean for support. Dean soothes his back. Repeating the words "You're okay..."

Another five and he lets go of Jack and squeezed his shoulder with a reassuring nod. Waits for Jack to smile a little between his snuffles, then the hunter pats the boy's cheek before moving away to the safety of his room, his eyes stinging.

Because the emotion just became raw again. The emotion of losing his mother and failing Jack as a guardian. Like the times he failed Sam, those times he lashed against Cas. All because something is wrong with him.

Buried anger. Guilt. Projection on others. His own weakness. It all came resurfacing just like in Purgatory. He is that kind of piece of shit.

He locks himself in the bathroom, swallowing the lump in his throat threatening to burst. He turns the tap to avoid getting heard then slides his back on the cold ceramic wall down the floor and just... breaks.

Not five minutes passed, someone opens the bathroom door. Someone stands before him. Someone kneels and takes his shoulder and pulls him into a hug.

"Oh Dean..." Castiel embraces him so tight, it hurts. But it's warm and full of love. Castiel whispers on his ears, "What will I do to you, Dean? When you're making me so happy and proud?"

Dean wondered if Cas heard everything. Then he figured Cas did. The angel had been stalking him since day one after all.

Clinging on the familisr soft arms, Dean buries his nose on the crook of the angel's neck.

"Just stay with me, angel. I'll make you one proud guardian angel."

#flagged? #why? 😂 #coda 15x11

@verobatto-angelxhunter for the nice words awhile ago bout the world needing fic 😂 this is out of nowhere too!

And Im near the end of xroad 🤫🤭 luv 😁

parallel assbutt 😁

No, we don't need Chuck to confirm anything. That will more or less make Dean think this bastard's manipulating him and Cas. Plus the danger of Chuck using Cas against Dean. No, even Chuck isn't able to fathom the depth of LOVE Castiel has for humanity.

For Dean.

The beauty of it though, is how love works in mysterious ways that when Fate sets its bound, not even gods can see beyond what people in love can do.

Because you know why? Chuck is just a tantrum power god who never had the capacity to love. What makes Cas and Dean powerful? Their LOVE.

"Check your damn messages," he said and hang up.

He found the message confusing as he wiped his eyes in disappointment. But all despites, he still knew the man cared enough and understood why love and anger are painted with the same color.

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Oh Purgatory 2.0 #spoilertheory

But Benny dies on Dean so the hunter breaks and cries his little heart out until he remembers he still has a friend out there in imminent danger and just couldn't handle losing another close friend so he prays to Cas, asks him to listen and apologizes for being a shit person and foe everything else...

Only know you need him

when you let him go 😓

hi Dean!

Is Cas really top? 😆✨😂

She's okay... She is.. Right? 🥺💔