More and more, it's becoming clear that I'll never have the same kind of connection as someone who was actually raised on the coast and had the opportunity to pursue related careers and hobbies from a young age. I honestly don't know how to deal with the fact that I will never be as close no matter what I do.
Is it delusional to believe I ever felt a calling in the first place, when there are so many people in a better position to be called?
...You know what, sure, I can incorporate that into my belief system.
Does the ocean need a reason to call someone? Does your love and respect for the ocean matter less than one who lives closer? Does a connection need to be the deepest and most intimate to matter? About 3 billion years ago, the whole earth was ocean. There were no continents. Just water on crust that eventually built up to form the land we live on. Does the ocean forget?