Local Deer Does Magic

Quick someone pleASE TELL ME about a bachelors major I could actually complete... Like majoring in mediocre knowledge on random shit? I'm having a bit of an inner meltdown about this at like midnight in bed. I'm starting my second year out of school (finished 2 years and then took a break cuz mental melting and emotional turmoil) with little to no idea. Actually I guess I have like one idea? But I have no confidence that I'll be able to complete that shit??? I'm thinking biology with a focus on osteology (bone stuff)/zoology/ornithology (birds)/environmental stuff? But I'm thinking back to freshman year bio and how I barely managed a C. And that was the year that I did best at college. Like that was the year I went to all my classes and did most of my homework and actually studied sometimes. That was the year I actually went outside and had a half reasonable sleep schedule. So how am I gonna major in biology when I literally didn't understand half of 100 level bio and have never done well with experiment reports - to the point where it's literally just watching what other people do and hoping mine is at least right in theory. And everything else that I can think of im just over here like "welp we've seen how those things went"

The other night we had real bad storms on the south side of Chicago. And in my backyard our peach tree got pushed over and a no longer active electrical pole fell over and landed on our wires. There were also many other trees in our neighbors' yards that fell or broke 😢 But we had to bust out the candles and cuz my room was too hot, I slept in the livingroom. I was all ready to do some spells and rituals and grabbed some of my crystals, my notes, my cat skull and companion! But basically I just ended up feeling energy from different things and recording their differences in feeling... I'm kinda proud I can start to feel the differences now, and how strong I could feel the energies. But I'm also disappointed that I didn't have time/energy to do more. I feel like I wasn't very productive. And I know that's not exactly true. But I never get opportunities to have candles lit and have an atmosphere that im excited to do magic in. So I was semi-hoping the power outage would last longer than it did.