how's everything been going?
I moved houses again. Started a brand new job. Got sick (not covid). Had a fight with my sibling. Contemplated the internalized racism I have for my own culture. Played Pokemon Arceus and got obsessed with the sad train man. Got sick AGAIN (still not covid).
currently am in bed at home (sick), wishing I had energy for writing. I miss being motivated. thank you for being kind enough to check in on someone who’s all but become a ghost around here.
Raphie and ratties
trigger tag as: racism, native targeted racism (and variants), and cultural appropriation. i know that the images used in this can be upsetting and look "scary," but i do not want to see people tag for this if they are not native. the images of the ice cannibals in this are not of real ice cannibals and have no impact. i want people, especially those who are not native, to see this post. i will be blocking all people who tag this as "long post" or variants.
tl;dr: please stop aestheticizing native spirits, especially evil ones that should not be spoken about unless to warn people. i'm not putting this under a read more because i am tired of people on here, tiktok, and twitter playing these out to be funny things to put into their identity and monster aus.
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people who are not native, especially white people, seem to have an obsession with the "evil spirits" of native culture and beliefs. an interest in our beliefs is not unusual nor is it unwanted (depending on what they are, or how closed their community is), but the way people on social media (especially tumblr and tiktok) treat these is deplorable.
the most common creature appropriated by people is the one from the algonquin-speaking nations up north. this one is explicitly an evil spirit, sometimes described as the definition of evil, whose name should not be spoken. it should not be romanticized or aestheticized. it is hard to exactly say why, but it is akin to how christians feel about the word "devil." we believe that these beings are terrifying, and that their names also give powers; we must not give them the room to exert power. if you speak their name, it gives them power and may summon them (especially if you are near the location of those nations). this is not a good comparison in any way except to show the impact of the word.
just by me bringing this up, it is likely that you understand what i am talking about. this creature goes by many names that vary from not only region, but also by culture. the best way to refer to it is as the "ice cannibal," or by censoring its name.
the bastardized version of the ice cannibal appears to be this.
this depiction was created by stephen king, and was popularized by his story. the image of this is inaccurate to most, if not all legends of the ice cannibal.
the most common description of the ice cannibal is sourced from here. it states:
The apperance of a ... is huge, monstrous, and made of or coated in ice, but the human it once was is still frozen inside the monster where its heart should be...
there are little to no drawings of this actual depiction, simply because the nations do not wish to create power for the ice cannibal. some others are found from here, which are described as:
Sometimes, ... are described as exceptionally thin, with the skull and skeleton pushing through its ash-coloured, mummy-like skin. Other stories describe the... as a well-fleshed giant who gets proportionately larger the more it eats. According to other legends, the ... has pointed or animal-like ears with antlers or horns sprouting on its head. A ... eyes have been described as sunken or glowing like hot coals. Sharp and pointy teeth, extremely bad breath and body odour are also often traits of a ... .
it should be stated that the relevancy and truthfulness of this article may or may not be fully accurate due to the nature of the site and author (ran by the canadian government, and written by a white man.)
none of these descriptions line up with the modern depiction of ice cannibals. the sheer misrepresentation combined with the aestheticization of these monsters grows an unhealthy attachment to them, to the point where people who are not native have been using this creature as gender identities, pronouns, or even names. an example of this is found here,
this is wildly inappropriate, appropriative, and racist. this is not even including the ice cannibal monster aus of people, including a person from a group of racist youtubers.
☆PENALTY☆
are there any lines youve written that youre supremely proud of?? ive been wanting to get a quote tattooed on my wrists, and i absolutely love your writing. the way you bring out emotions and ideas in your writing is incredible and id love to get something tattooed (with permission ofc) even if you wouldnt want me to do that, id still like to know what your favorite things youve written are
I have no doubt that this reply is far, far too late for it to be of any help, but please know I have agonized over it since the day I found your ask in my inbox. And it’s not even actually useful, cuz in the end I could not even begin to select a piece of my writing that would be worthy of permanent inking onto your skin. I am BEYOND flattered, to the point that I’m kind of paralyzed by emotion, but I just... I can’t pick something for you! It’s so much responsibility and I have far too a nebulous relationship with my writing to ever believe something I picked is The sentence for you to use.
I’m really sorry I sat on this ask for so long.... I’m fuckin honored someone would even approach me with this question, please don’t think I would ever take offense to something like it. I’m just at a loss on answering it.
Really, I’d rather ask the brilliant community who’ve read my works (and probably remember things better than me at this point) to reply to this post with THEIR favorite lines. When in doubt, crowdsource, right? (And even if this comes too late, it’s still be really cool to know what impacted folks the most!)
https://spectrumscribe.tumblr.com/post/186086403698/heyo-announcement-for-folks-whore-friendsmutuals
Sure she didn't just deactivate because she's trying to "purge" Fandoms??
This post is from 2 years ago my dude, dw abt it
Have you seen Luca?
Not yet!!! I refuse to get d*sney+ and instead shall wait for my preferred pirating site to have a quality upload of it. (The merm designs, the fluid concept of how they go back and forth between forms... I’m so excited)
Been a while, I'm happy to see you online reblogging stuff at least. I really hope your safe, okay, and having things get better wherever you are. I love you and your writing so much and just hope things can be good for you eventually.
hello incredibly sweet anon! i have been doing as well as is possible under the circumstances, which is pretty alright all things considering. i'm housed, cared for, and getting by. i'm very lucky to have what i do and i am grateful.
i feel like people won't believe me when i say this, but i quite painfully miss being able to be more engaged with the intrepid followers of this blog + the fandom circles i'm known in. i miss having that energy, yknow?
i'm tired of existing in a malaise, something i'm sure plenty of people are also tired of. i'm muddling through some writing projects, but it's so slow-going they aren't worth detailing for anyone. i sincerely hope to share them with you all someday, though, and receiving a message, that some beautiful person out there is still waiting for that to happen... well, thank you, for your patience and your faith. on the other side of all this, i intend to reward you for that.
i'll pay these kind words forwards and wish all the best to everyone who reads this. i miss you all too, and i love you, thank you and take care <3
hello fellow trans people
babygirl I know childrens media lore you wouldn't even care about
writers envy but evil
do you ever see a banger concept executed a way you dont like and cup its face in your hands and tell it 'i can fix you'
Mikey f*cking murders someone part 1
I can’t believe it was kept in the wraps for 2 weeks… but I’m a bit flabbergasted and still processing that Kentaro Miura has passed away.
It’s pretty easy to understate how big his influence is in art. Without him, we wouldn’t get Dark Souls and Bloodborne, and the animators and artists of Castlevania explicitly said he was in an influence in their work.
Miura, in my opinion, had one of the greatest eyes for detail and some STRONG, STRONG, STRONG visual imagery almost untouched by… well a lot of people really.
He pushed the visual imagery of fantasy and horror in new and exciting ways, and it’s a test to his timeless writing that we’re still invested in Berserk for decades.
RIP Mr. Miura.
