Prompt 9 please and thank you! 😊
"I sacrificed everything for you!" from Angsty Romance Prompt List
I will make it short and won't tag my list - since it will be more like drabble than a full-body fic.
Break
Your throat still hurts from yelling, and your eyelids feel heavy because of the tears. It's getting colder, and you wish to return to the camp, but Astarion is still there, and you absolutely don't feel like talking or being near him.
Besides, you share the tent.
You press your knees against your chest and sniff.
Astarion knows his ways with words. He knows how to please. He knows how to hurt.
And in the last few weeks, you haven't heard a single good word from him as if all of a sudden you started to annoy him.
So did he.
You are annoyed with his nightmares, with his clinginess, with his rudeness. Everything you never paid attention to before feels bitter.
Of course, it was supposed to happen.
Astarion never lived before you met. His new life started with you by his side.
He barely had any personality. He had no idea who he was, what he liked, what he hated. Even though you always give him a choice, you encourage him to decide for himself.
He is shaped by you.
Things which are right for you are right for him.
Things that are wrong for you are wrong for him.
He doesn't know who he is without you.
And he is angry. He is angry like a rebellious child who has been controlled by his parents. He is rebellious like a cult member who realizes the world is different from what he was told.
And you?
You love him but he is a burden. He requires so much attention and care from you that you are exhausted. From his nightmares, dissociation, snapping. That he blows up at you and you have to forgive him because he barely understands his emotions.
Will it even work? You don’t know.
You wipe your tears and realize there is only one decision to make. It's cruel, it's heartbreaking but there is no other option.
Slowly you return to the camp. Astarion is outside with his book. He didn't even look at you tough before he always used to welcome you with a smile.
"Astarion, we need to take a break."
"What?"
"It doesn't work. It doesn't work the way we wanted. We need to take a break. We need to sort out things for ourselves."
Astarion bursts out. He yells at you. He screams at the top of his lungs.
"HOW DARE YOU?! I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING FOR YOU! AND THAT'S WHAT YOU DO?!"
It would be easy to yell back. Him? What exactly did he sacrifice? The ascension? He admitted himself he never wanted it. But you? You sacrificed a lot. Life in the sun. Friends. Comfort. Everything.
But you don't say anything about that.
"I am not saying it's over."
"Then what is it?"
"You need to figure out what you are without me. What your values are, what your beliefs are, and who you are overall. You need to be on your own for a while, without me approving or disapproving your actions. And I need to decide if I can handle being with you till my mortal days end."
Astarion turns away. He is angry. He is hurt.
But he nods.
"Very well. Let's figure out things for ourselves."
"In three years," you say. "Three years later, we will meet at Baldur's gate. If any of us wishes to continue this relationship, we spend time there from Mirthul to Eleasis. Four months. If the other one doesn't show up, it's over. "
He chuckles bitterly.
"And again I do things you want. But I don't mind. Three years."
You leave at sunset with a few things belonging to you and head to the nearest city. It's weird to travel alone in the sunlight but suddenly you feel free.
There are certainly perks of being alone.
