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About me:

I’m a 23 year old struggling with a restrictive eating disorder (along with orthorexia).

About this blog:

This blog is a diary-ish where I’ll post and reblog stuff related to weight loss, clean eating and mental health. If you get triggered by that I advise you to block me but please do not report!

Stats:

Height: 161 cm / 5”3

HW: 75 kg / 165 lbs

LW: 49 kg / 108 lbs

CW: 53 kg / 116 lbs

GW: 45 kg (99 lbs) has always been my goal weight but my real goal is to be fit and if that is at another weight I’m okay with that.

Safe foods:

Fruit and vegetables

Non-dairy milks

Nuts and seeds (in moderation)

Whole grains

Legumes

Tofu / Tempeh

Tea

Fear foods:

Meat

Dairy

Eggs

Ultra processed food

Oily / fried food

Sugar / candy / pastries

My posts are tagged as: #my post

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academicbrunetted asked:

do you go to college?

No, why?

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130squeen

st4rv1npr1nc3ss

i have so much potential i just need to get to my desired weight.

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rueisdying

theskinnydreamerr

If you hate yourself now imagine how much you will hate yourself after you eat that food that oozing in calories

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skinnyminnie27

bonesanaall

quitting my social life to focus on my ed

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lanadelreyrexii

my biggest fear is fainting and being too heavy for one person to carry me

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whateveryouwantsweetheart

I know I’m pretty I know I have a good body it’s just hiding behind this fat

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Don’t get me wrong, exercise is great. But when I can feel my fat jiggle during a workout I die a little.

#tw ed ana #tw ana rant #weight loss #light as a feather #tw ana bløg #3d not sheeran #clean eating #i want to lose weight #tw 3d vent #3d blog #my post #tw eating issues #3d relapse #3d but not sheeren #3d f4st #3ating d1sorder

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abigail-rlps

why did I eat that?

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lilmelmelsworld

aprilfools33

Problem: After I eat I always feel like banging my head against the wall

Solution: don't eat

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A couple of weeks ago (in the beginning of my relapse) I could allow myself to eat fruit or nuts for snacks to keep the energy for working out.

Now I can’t even eat half a carrot without feeling gross and guilty.

#tw ed ana #tw ana rant #weight loss #light as a feather #tw ana bløg #3d not sheeran #clean eating #i want to lose weight #tw 3d vent #3d blog #my post #tw eating issues #3d relapse #3d but not sheeren #3d f4st #3ating d1sorder

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starwlng

i lost myself and i'm not even skinny.

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proteinaddicter

nothing triggers me more than knowing someone taller than you weighs less than you.

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irene2608

ibleedvanillafrosting

why is weight loss so excruciatingly slow

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bunniiiiixo

painfull-luck

I'm stronger than this.

I'm stronger than my urges, I'm stronger than my gluttony, I'm stronger than my hunger, I'm stronger than my greed, I'm stronger than my pain, I'm stronger than food, I'm stronger than anybody else thinks I am.

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prettybambi701 asked:

PLEASE TELL ME HOW YOU GOT TO 53KG

I've been 73 and in currently stuck on 67kg

First of all: it took time. The journey wasn’t linear. But basically: I restricted (sometimes low, sometimes high) and didn’t give up, even when I felt like doing so.

Worth noting: my weight has fluctuated a lot since I was at my heaviest. I’ve given recovery several chances and gained weight, then relapsed and lost weight.

It might seem like a bullshit answer but it’s the truth. You just have to keep going.

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h4unted-bi-my-b0dy

there’s nothing i yearn more for than a concave stomach. to just see that gap between my underwear and stomach as they’re held up by my hip bones. i need that more than anything. so desperate to have that again.