I’m still not over the fact that Xaden abandoned all his intentions of just repressing the crap out of his feelings, flew to Montserrat, and immediately started flirting with Violet just because he didn’t see her for a couple of days and was worried she was getting close to another man, who she’d been nothing but distant towards for weeks.
He is SO dramatic I can’t even 😭
So I keep thinking about this, and today it suddenly dawned on me: of course he doesn’t know how to be chill about this. Violet is the first new person he’s loved since he met his closest friends in childhood. She’s the first person he’s started caring about since he lost every adult who mattered in his world as a teenager. She’s his first love, and how many of us are chill about our first loves *without* such a background of loss? Of course he’s not rational about losing her. He knows what loss is and he can’t bear going through it again.
…wait until he’s a new dad, he’s going to be fucking terrifying.