I know this is stupid and personal and whatever but like….
One of the most consistent readers of my Arcane fic who commented on everything joined the server and asked for a RP partner and so I volunteered as tribute and we were having such a blast RPing together. I hadn’t heard from her in a few days but figured she was busy so I shot her a message on discord and found I was blocked.
She had left the server and deleted her ao3 account. No warning. I have no idea what I did. Nice thing to wake up to on a Saturday morning and it hits a particular rejection trauma spot for me so I’m sitting here crying my eyes out despite being allergic to my own stupid tears, texting someone so I don’t lose my sobriety because I’m almost at 30 days clean and I don’t want to lose that but fuck it hurts.
What did I do???