does anyone else just not really care about food but when it comes to drinking you can not control yourself? like i will gladly go on a salad-only diet and cut out fried food and junk food for a whole month as long as you let me have my daily cups of coffee and tea
love is such a beautiful thing and it seems cool... FOR OTHER PEOPLE. when its ME, i just want that shit out of me because i do NOT have the time for this
i may not know anything about snap streaks but i have 5 pinterest accounts for my different interests (each with 20k+ pins), a daily screen time of 9 hours per day, and my spotify wrapped last year was 80,000 minutes listened. that's like, basically the same thing as a snap streak, right?
mood rings are such a scam because why are they always saying that i'm sad?? i mean it's true but come on...
sometimes i be purposefully pushing people away because i think that being alone makes me mature but then i remember that even adults lean on their friends for emotional support and then i just feel alone lolll
they shouldn't have invented feeling comfortable in sadness because now i can't be happy for longer than a day
i’m on anti depressants and i know i should be sad but i’m just…not? it’s weird i don’t like it. if being sad is all i’ve ever been then does being happy make me a new person? i don’t want to be new.
yeah, i get what you mean. when i feel happy and my heart is light i feel conscious of it and feel guilty about not feeling sad. like not guilty per say, but it just feels wrong, as if the moment is a dream and i'll soon be brought back to reality again. it also feels like I'm abandoning my past self, like if i give up this sadness (which i have learnt to feel comfortable in) then i'm cutting away a vital part of my being, and suddenly i don't know who i am. man,,, i hate having thoughts. i'm so jealous of impulsive people who just follow their hearts.
i hate when games that you quit start to release better characters
i want a cool as fuck vivienne westwood lighter but like not to smoke. maybe i should become a hippie so i could justify the purchase as useful for lighting candles
What do you think about growing up?? About every year that passes you get older, does it scare you or bring you some comfort?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHXSHSHSHSHSJAJABSBSBSHSHSBSJXJDJHDSHSJSJSBSJSHSJS: my honest reaction when i have to think about the future
actually it's kind of weird because i like growing older but i hate that time is moving forwards. that specifically makes me think about alice in wonderland through the looking glass by tim burton, which unsettles me. :(
idk like... i want to be older so i can be independent and live how i really want to live, but at the same time i don't want to grow up and be responsible for myself. i wish there was a way for me to grow older without growing up.
does anyone ever think about their life and realise they've never had a group of friends they can rely on
i blame it on highschool having really sucky people and social expectations. its so hard to form connection when im also trying not to kms and ace the classes but live laugh love i guess
when my stem friends complain about english being a compulsory subject i have to actually log out of the coversation or i would actually start quoting dead poets society and never stop
i hate studying science so much but apparently being good at science means that you're smart and i want to be perceived as smart so the grind continues, i'm afraid
btw u can only associate me with things that are rotten and molding and bloody and blackened and chipped and empty. that's the only correct way to perceive me
my friend was like "do you ever fantasise at night about your crush and having superpowers" and i just stared at her cus like girl the only thing i fantasise about at night is painless ways of killing myself
the sexual tension between me and buying a new notebook when i have 6 unfinished ones at home
sometimes i be trying to tell my friend about my day but then i remember that i'm boring and they probably don't care so i just stop in the middle of my sentence
had a shit day but im rereading the secret history!! life is dark but atleast i can read it about it instead of having to live in the moment and experience it first hand