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Gay men: wow women are so cool! They so important bc they are the ones that preserve the culture and the familias, and take care of everyone and all that! Yay woman!

Also gay men: * are agressive against their mothers, "friends" and any woman in a explicit way and in a passive agressive way even to "female" things and interests, will never hear when a woman tell them they are being wrong, bad or evil, they use them to get unquestioned affection, they constantly speak of how female bodies and genitals are disgusting and inferior, they touch them and shit without permission, they demand that women look like a 50s trad wife fantasy character but at the same time like the most hot and horny but not too much bc they feel disgued for patriarcal reasons, shit on women that are in het normative relationships even when they hate any men, specially gay men, that are not the stereotypical greek pedo fetich teen-looking or gym bro asshole, and don't dress "good", fetichizing about the fascist views about mothers and women and goddesses made by European colonialist in the 1800s and keep being perpetuate by white fascist women under the banner of "feminism" (not actual feminism, just european republican capitalist patriarchy), don't use condoms, don't take health sex checks, don't mask, etc*

Yankees will die on the hill of "I only read kids books, bad YA books, and fics bc is my right to be ignorant my whole life, lack critical thinking, analysis skills, media literacy, etc and i will be angry when ppl tell me that you can't keep people reading only texts for 12yo kids". The amount of ppl, including "educated" ppl that say that is OK and that mature reading comprehension and general understanding of media analysis will just appear from thin air is ridiculous. The statements of this ppl is that when ppl read the same type of books over and over again "of course" kids and teens (and adults) will, eventually, choose more challenging texts bc they will, magically, generate skills and tools to do so. No. That's not how education works nor what the stages of development tell us. Why they think books for each age level exists? Someone just told me that "In usa part of the illiteracy is bc how picky the system is in regad of what kids can read". as a response to me saying that you can't be an adult and keep reading bad YA books made just for the money. Speaking of lack of literacy. How ppl can think that saying "you need to increase the challange the books present to the reader to better their skills, education, and intellect" is the same than saying "I want to ban books and forbid you of reading whatever the fuck bs ya book wrote by an IA or a ghost writer, with the same plot that 4677 other books that you are reading"? And this ppl is allowed to vote and decide how the world works?

The anti intellectualism is so deep in usa that even librarians (and probably teachers too) die on that trash hill. Reading reylo fic made book and hush hush only and for your whole life will not develop your literacy, your education nor ur critical thinking. This constante idea from usa ppl that by magic things will reach them and such is heinous. Is the same logic that the "invisible hand" (aka the hand of their usa civil evangelic god) will see the market. You will not get better at reading just "bc" by reading the same low effort books. Is like saying that you will become a chef by making toasted bread in the toaster machine every single time and nothing else. And saying "I only read teen books as an adults bc adult books are sad and I want to only be happy and use books for escapism" is not a good excuse for your active choice at remaining ignorant and uneducated. There are wholesome adult books, there is adults books about hope, books that are funny to read and still are for adults and teach you about the reality that ypu want to evade at all cost.

This desire to ignore the world by ignoring education is the perfect ambient to creating and rising fascists. No surprise that most usa ppl live in a bubble and even their left is incapable of seen how fascist they are too. Then they get angry when ppl tells them they are wrong.

Usa ppl will give any excuse before being able to understand the depth of their wrongs.

Is not possible that ppl on the Internet and ppl that wants to do activism use the term "privilege", but don't know what it means nor that is a philosophy/political word. Too many ppl is using it and have zero understanding of what they are talking about. Just now a person was saying that X subgroup have privilege above Z subgroup of the same group, even when non of them have power and X is not oppressing Z. What's more, the whole discussion have zero political and philosophical weight bc the post made to defend Z and call-out X for being oppressors is made by a person and supported by people that don't understand the politics and philosophy of X. Even more, probably the posts (and probably only posts) that they have seen about X ppl talking about the subject is here in tumblr or other social media and made by ppl that lacks studies about the subject itself thus can't support its take well nor can give a full response to Z ppl. And I'm gonna go a step further; even if some of that posts did the job, I'm sure that most of Z people will not want to understand or will still lack the tools to understand.

Is depressing that people think they can talk about whatever they want and think their opinions, experiences, social media post readings, and half-baked politics are activism or politics, and don't need studies and comprehension of that politics and philosophy (I'm not saying go to collage and take politics or philosophy btw).

No matter how opressed you are, is a reality that you can have a ignorant opinion about your own oppression or others. Like when some poor people thinks they are poor just bc they don't work enough and that at some point they will rise to the next middle/upper class, and that when other working class ppl tells them is capitalism, they feel/think are being opressed and take a more fascist view in their weak understanding of the world and their own oppression. Specially depressing and hard to achieve understanding when they are part of imperialist regimes.

This is like when the ppl learn a scientific term and now use it on a daily basis even when they don't know what it means or they think they know, but actually they don't.

Why ethno states even exist? Why the fuck theocratic states still exist too? It shouldn't exist a fucking country owned by the pope. Why Vatican, which is a city, a country?, is even a city really? How can be possible that such thing had more recognition as a country than Palestine for decades? What's next? Mormons making their own country? Evangelicals to have one also? Oh wait that's usa. But you see what that shit does?

U know what enrage me? That in Chile, being the country with the largest diaspora of Palestinians and their descendants in the world, say Palestinians are, a lot of them, christian conservatives, right wing, fascists. We haven't still kickout and close the israeli embassy and no one relevant have call for it yet. The world famous Palestinian FC? Is in the upper class neighbourhood in which the poor can't go bc is far af, u feel poorer and more brown when u go to the upper class area of the capital where the rich live behind walls bc they hate the poor. I can't buy the shirt of the football club coz is expensive af and was in fact easier and less expensive to bring a kufiya of Hebron 15 years ago. The Palestinian politicians are 99% of them seudo christian but full fascists and have supported the right wing governments since ever. Including the ones that supported the crimes of Piñera's dictatorship (torture, mutilation, rape, detentions, burning buildings like supermarkets, closing them in working class areas to control food and water, etc). Some palestinians here have huge companies and fabrics, being one of the migrant groups with more money in hands of some families which are the wealthiest of the country. And the representatives of Palestinians here, like club Palestine, have never say a thing. Never speak against the fascism, the crimes against queer people or the native nations of Chile which have been under colonisation and ethnic cleaning for centuries, the destruction of the land at hands of the upper class stealing water, food, killing ppl for lack of basic human resources, the killing of the land and our ppl at hands of the extraction of minerals, the constant political killings, the amount of nazis we had/have here and their descendants that are known for supporting every crime here. I can't stand that the faces of Palestine here are the upper class while the other Palestinians working class lives, works or study in middle class areas or the marginalised areas with other migrants.

Why Palestine here is represented by the blond pale upper class that speaks with the accent of the upper class and only interact with the upper class that hate the poor, the black, the brown, the natives, the left, the queers? Even a open supporter and known spy of pinochets dictatorship created the hymn of the Club and they honored him and shit at the club when the fascist piece of shit died some years ago? The ones that speak up in their ig account had our comments deleted. And that shit is every day when u point out how they betrayed the values that one is supposed to have if u call for Palestine liberation. Is not our obligation to be anti fascist, anti capitalist, anti imperialists if we belive in Palestine liberation?

In every single one of the protests and riots that occurred in Chile, the Palestinian flag is high in the sky like the chilean one, the Wallmapu, the Wiphala. Palestine flag is part of our daily life as well the histories of families and friends living, working, being friends with the working class palestinians back in the day. Even now Palestinians lifes are waved in our personal histories in one way or another. There is no place in which there is not palestinian food stores or restaurants, is impossible to not see al least 1 person with a kufiya or the flag in ur daily life, I growth up with a portrait of Yasir Arafat in my house, multiple Qurans in the house, multiple kufiyas and garments, books, art, even the food become part of my household. I ĥad school mates, neighbours of the area, one of the ppl I live with went to the beautiful mosque of the neighbourhood. In one of my school trips to other region of the country they took us to the mosque there in which ppl of all religions and faiths can pray together and was built with the idea of peace and living together, all the material are native to our land, and is one of the most beautiful buildings I have ever seen.

The little I know of my family history is that always, always, had relationship in some one or another with palestinians and other ppl from Middle East and the Arab world (heck anyone that was a migrante also). There is even a tradition to pass the same name from one generation to another, which i can only guess was bc a palestinian or other person of the region, but don't know if was bc a friend or even maybe someone in the past married or was in love with a palestinian. I don't know how many ppl back in the blood line carried the name, I know of at least 4 in different generations, but I carry it.

I remember being a kid and placing candles and drawings with the Palestinian flag in my balcony bc we always saw the news about Palestina. I wanted peace for them, and also wandered why no one send guerrillas to help them, like the armed resistance in Pinochets dictatorship, all the South American resistances fighting dictatorships, or all the people that went from all over the world to fight against the dictatorships of Hitler, Franco, Tito, etc. Why? Why no one went to help them? Years later, I thought the same but without the innocence of then, I asked out loud and also in my mind, why no one calls for an armed resistance from all over the globe. My couple said to me that make no sense the hippie upper class family friendly park activity in the rich neighbourhood made by the Club to raise money (which j don't know why considering that, as I said, that some of the upper classes families could take money of their own wallets comfortable without worrying of not been able to pay the bills the next months, they will not loss the money) when what Palestine needs is to fight, not thoughts and prayers. Certainly Palestina don't need the conservative right wing disguised as left descendents that feel more part of the chilean upper class that is terrible european-ish and gringo-ish as all upper classes of South America that want to distance themselves of the natives and the brown and black working class.

I saw an anarchist saying that they felt alone asking for the world to help with soldiers and guerrilleros. I said tons of times why when was the fascist Ukraine (that said brown and black ppl deserved war and blue eyes blonde ppl like them don't ) everyone was making graffiti of "freedom to the donbas" and literally bought military gear to use and tried to fly to Ukrain to fight the fascist Russia for days and weeks, calling to arms, even when tons of European countries decided to care bc geopolitics, but when was and is still Palestine??? Where are the people that are ready to fight? Where are they? The anarchist asked why ppl is being so indifferent. What I can tell them when not even the descendants are answering nor making that question here in the piece of crap country in which they live? I saw yesterday a video of Palestinians in other country singing for Palestine and calling for the arrive of freedom, independence, and socialism. Yes, socialism.

I just appreciate and feel empathy for Palestine. Is a problem that i feel this way? Idk I guess I am wrong af if I am more radical than the community here.

But can I say that it makes me cry and feel deep pain and wrath that my fellow humans are exterminate in a Final solution crime at hands of a european and USA check point disguised as a country? Yes, I can say that. I know that never ever an ethno state or any colonialist has stopped because u ask please. I also know, from the history of the world, that only fighting helps (and economical sanctions from everyone against the opressor which the world will not make bc they will call them anti semitic and all that zionist rhetoric and questions colonialism). Yes, fighting fake news helps, but helps more, u know, physically fight the oppressors, saying the truth. I'm tired of hearing diplomatic "middle ground" and "both sides" bullshit. I'm tired of the world behaving like they didn't allowed the comeback in full force of the extremist far right in every corner and Palestine in used as experiment to what can be done without consequences. I can expect this from the Canadian, French, German or Statetian that want to deport everyone bc what can u expect of imperialists countries? But that the descendants of the oppressed support Conservative shit behaviour even when the land of their families is under ethnic cleaning???

How can capitalism, imperialism, right wing politics and life style transform you in a disgrace? Why then the working class chileans and mostly all south Americans rise the Palestine flag? Shpuld we not? We have no right, is not our place to fight for palestinians, we can only fight with them when they call for us. I repeat; fight with them but not for them. I wonder how many south americans from different cultures and nations would take arms if palestinians from the diaspora call us. But then I remember that we don't even help the neighbours and only help white ppl. Is this what displacement do? We all were displaced of territories. So is this why no one cares beyond the pantomime of seudo leftists speech, thoughts and prayers, and sharing info in social media?

Why I am angry when it feels like I should forget how every territory that has been colonised get rid of the imperialists? Should I stick to just share news with mouth shut in social media that censors and shadowban the truth and deletes the accounts of palestinians? Is this how we see the world sinking in full nazi shit and a entire country disappear? Extermination, deporting ppl, europeans creating ethno states, zionism, christo fascism, Islamic ppl that don't help their own ppl in other country, south america living a second Operation Condor and under full invasion of USA with tons of military bases and supporting dictatorships and corrupting elections. All happening at the same time and I just can't stop to remember that while genocide was declared internationally and here was the anniversary of the dictatorship of Piñera (with zero justice for the crimes and the declaration of war he made to his own country helped with israeli weapons and torture techniques) and the year of the 50th anniversary of the Coup against Allende the palestinians organisations here didn't say a thing about this things (as always) and didn't had an bank account for help to Palestine until 4 days later, but first they announced that they would had to cancel the lunch they made every week for the memebers of the club (for wich u have to pay of course).

How can be posible that my source of true and reliable information and hope is people from all over the world, but not the literal fucking palestinian club in the country with the most number of palestinians??? They share some fake news and the comments is full of anti semitic conspiranoic rich ppl for fuck sake. All bs Christians of course, forget u will see more muslims there or palestinian theology of liberation. They even make a Christian mass but nothing in the mosques, announced nothing.

Why I can trust palestinians and all the people that is fighting out there but not the ones here?

Should I just give up? Lost hope? Think that is preferable no """violence""" (aka no resistance) and only care if was a direct family member like I just read a person say? I just read a human saying their grandmother was palestinian and had to fly to Chile bc the colonialist settlement, and that her grandmother died some years ago, and that they, the human writing, don't belive in violence, but they would probably feel angry if were their kids corpse in a plastic bag and then they would feel that violence is necessary.

I feel this country stain everything and everyone that lives here for too long. The fascism and the lack of empathy and understanding corrupts all.

There are better countries to live, it must be one, this one is terrible and the next constitution being written and will be voted stripes working class of all our human rights, and the next presidential candidate is a far right pinochetist son of a nazi that had slaves here, stole land from indigenous ppl and country folk in the south which is full of nazis.

This is why u probably haven't seen news about huge manifestations here in Chile beyond the one of the other day (that wasn't really big) and see mostly from any other part of the globe. Here have been no really hard protests nor anything. There was a call for a international strike the other day and here nothing happened really. Palestinians of the world need to call out the ones here for forgetting the anti colonialist and anti capitalist fight, the fight for life and freedom.

All the ppl living in Palestine deserves better than this behaviour, my pathetic angry post, 20 miserable trucks that can't pass, and this soulless heartless world.

In my disable body for moments lives the hope that someday they will have socialism and every imperialist in the world would die at hands of the ppl they oppressed. Survive Palestine, Free Palestine, Independent 1 state Palestine, Socialist Palestine from the river to the sea.