say something, i‘m giving up on you

cold eyes, cold air, cold words, cold touches.

can’t miya atsumu just say something instead of leaving you in dust like this?

you’re watching it all, in-front of your eyes, watching it all unfold and fall into place as he shares lingering touches with her. you wish you can say something, say that you’re the significant other, say that you’re the on who’s only allowed to touch him like that, boldly say that you love him and that he loves you.

but how could you?

you can’t take that beautiful smile off of his face. you can’t be the reason as to why he’s being held back, you can’t be the reason why he’s not having a fun time. so you take a step back, a big step back, watching him smile as she presses a diligent kiss on his cheek.

you want to scream and yell, but you can’t because you know damn well that you can’t give him that kind of glow, can’t give him that kind of happiness, can’t give him that kind of joy in his life.

so you’d have to swallow your pride and do this for you two.

“atsumu,” you bitterly call him with a sad smile on your face. he looks back and watches you with a confused expression portrayed on his face. you chuckle at him in a weird way that makes him a tad bit worried.

“is anything wrong?” he asks, a tad bit concerned with the way you’re acting towards him. but you seem to be unworried, unalarmed, unmoving, fully accepting your fate with this one.

“i love you.” you say. you wish he would say it back, but just as you suspected, he can’t. how could he? he doesn’t love you that way anymore, so he just looks at you and watches with a sullen face.

“… yeah, me too.”

you’ve already followed him everywhere he wanted you to be, you’ve already shaped yourself into the person who he wants you to be, but you’re feeling all too small. it was just all in your head after all, this relationship had no hope from the start, you’d become the butt of the joke after all this time. you wish you can apologize to him for not being enough, but you can’t anymore, even if he’s the one that you love because you’re finally saying goodbye.

you wish he would say something, because now you’re giving up on him.