sometimes i think about cquackity being the one to propose to cschlatt, being the one who cared so much, wanted things to work so bad, think about him building the white house. sometimes i think about him wanting a big lavish wedding with all of manburg watching, daring to daydream about it at work some days with a silly little grin on his face (he was 19) (he was 19) until schlatt yelled over at him from across the room, demanding to know why quackitys just sitting there lookign moony eyed for and when quackity doesnt say anything him telling quackity to get back to work with an eye roll and a snort. sometimes i think about them getting married, a quiet, official affair officiated by fundy and attended by two witnesses and i think about him just being happy to be married. i think about him eating schlatts heart, searching within it for a crumb of the love he gave, with his teeth. and sometimes i think about him getting together with karl and sapnap only a day after manburg fell, finding each other before the ashes settled and promising to get married as soon as the burned down city was restored. i think about him staring at his engagement rings, little and cheap bc they don't have a lot of money right now, and what they do have goes into el rapids growing infrastructure, a home for them someday, with certainly not enough left over for fancy jewelry, so sapnap made them by hand. they're messy and a little uneven and the jewels wiggle sometimes but quackity refuses to take them off, no matter what he's doing, even when george makes fun of him for wearing them as they dig up a garden and i think of him sitting in the quiet and twisting them around his fingers and reminding himself that he's loved he is that he put their rings on his finger and his on theirs and they want him too and i think about karl casually dropping "and when we're married" into conversation like its no big deal and sapnap going along with it like its nothing too and i think about him grinning like an idiot but trying to hide it, because its clearly nothing to sapnap and karl? and karl catching him first and not believing him when he says its nothing and laughing and kissing him like q being excited for the wedding is the sweetest thing he's ever heard and i think about them staying up all night trying to figure out what they want to write in their vows. and i think about an effiel tower and wedding chapel in the youngest country in the server, surrounded by roses bc they stand for love and they're also sapnap's favorite flower and i think about him standing outside the prison and feeling a promise to propose fall out of his lips with mist into the cold air and i think about him taking his rings of his finger for the first time since sapnap gave them to them, flushed and grinning, and trying to throw them into lava, leave them behind. i think about him collapsing and not being able to finish the job and tying them on a string round his neck and trying to forget the weight of a grindstone around his neck. i think about him on his hands and knees in the hot summer sun tearing the rose bushes out of the ground with his bare hands until they're more thorn than flesh and i think about him swearing not to go back, to leave first every chance he gets