Man.... I can't stop thinking about Pac and the Risus Pill arc
- Pac saying he took the pills because he didn't have any other choice, he was so hopeless he wants to take them until he doesn't remember anything
- Pac saying "At least I’m not crying in some random corner in the Island expecting my friends to come save me, and nobody comes save me"
- And then the thing he said immediately before that: "I lost my friend, I lost my friend’s friend, I lost my Egg, I lost my child, I lost everything, I'm– I was completely hopeless– so yeah, maybe I wanna be drugged and live my miserable but happy life. At least I’m not in that saddest place anymore."
- The blood at Chume Labs
- The three graves at Chume Labs
- The message he wrote to Cellbit asking Cellbit to kill him if things got too bad, then changing it and saying "lock me up" instead.
- The conversation with Fit, Fit pleading with him, and Pac saying "I don’t want to go back to that bad and sad place."
- Pac, despite his grief and depression, finding an antidote and saving himself (with the help of his friends)
Literally everything from the Risus Pill arc makes me so heartbroken
#i talk#qsmp talk#the crazy thing is is I still haven't seen the stream where they give Pac the antidote#I was busy that day and rushed home trying to catch the tail-end of the stream#and made the mistake of leaving Twitch open on my phone on the counter as I hopped in the shower#and then mid-shampoo I just heard a SCREAM from my phone and I was like ''UH OH''#didn't get a noise complaint but it scared the hell out of me#I never did find that clip of him and Cellbit talking after everything went down and he was cured#but I remember the quotes from it#aghhhh#suicide mention#sorta implied#ask to tag#I'm briefly touching upon the Risus arc in my fic but I really want to dig more into the arc#I know it'll just make me sad though#tw drugs#drug mention#addiction#qsmp analysis