Something something the passage of time or whatever, but I've been following a particular artist for AGES and out of the blue I saw a post from them that just said "My daughter loved what I made for dinner tonight :)" and I was genuinely like "Your WHAT???????" when I read it.
Like, logically yes I know people Age, but my gut reaction is still "I followed you like 7 years ago when you were a baby, what do you mean you're not still a college student."
#i talk#it's WILD#This isn't just an online problem my concept of time in general is just Very Bad#I know part of it is the whole ADHD thing but I think this has just always been an issue for me in general#I always saw my cousin as [redacted] age#and now I'm older than that and I'm just like huh. Not A Fan Of That#idk man it's been a weird brain day for me today#<- implying it hasn't been a weird brain day for the last few years#today was just really frustrating#also obligatory ''sorry if you're my friend and I keep ghosting you'' message#I'll talk to a friend and be like ''ah that was fun :)''#and then 5 months will pass and I'll be like ''no I just talked to you yesterday what do you mean?''#o(-(#It's an eternal ''I've thought of them so surely that means I've talked to them''#like no. no my friend. that is not how things work. you cannot psychically send vibes to people to let them know you're thinking about them#my best friend (bless her) has always been so nonchalant about it#it's no biggie if we haven't talked in a week or something we're just chilling. We're close enough that we don't need to text 24/7#also we're both busy being Constantly Crushed Under The Weight Of Reality's Many Horrors#idk I lost the plot of this post but in summary: I love my friends and I especially love my best friend#I'm very lucky to have her