here is the kid with the curious mind 🍫

there’s something so bittersweet about being an age regressor in a toy store. Going down aisles and carefully tracing the packaging of all these different playsets and dolls. All of the things I never got to play with as a child.

Yearning so terribly to pull open these colourful boxes and play to your heart’s content. Choosing my favourite little figure and walking them from room to plastic room. Mind fizzing with ideas and games.

But instead i stand apprehensively, are people staring at me? Do they think it’s weird that I’m here? I put the box down, even when a kindly worker approaches and asks if I need any help finding what I need today.

“Oh sorry no it’s not for me, it’s for my baby sibling.”

Every time.

ooof so now that my semesters ended for summer I’m feeling so yucky sad and lonely. I don’t really have many irl friends and it would be so nice to have someone to hang out with or irl regressor friends to have play dates with. one day maybe :(

Spent all day going around my area looking for these bluey cushion chairs and ended up with notbing because people keep buying out the whole stock to resell them for ridiculous prices :( I’m feeling so disappointed because I really really hyperfixated on getting one and now they’re all sold out everywhere and they’re likely never restocking them. People reselling them but for literal triple digits when they cost like a fifth of that

with my autism I can’t handle disappointment that well so I’m just feeling so ⚡️🌪️⚡️🌪️⚡️ :((((

:( things are just not goin my way atm. Went out to get food only to have two nasty girls say what I was wearing was weird and yelled embarrassing in my face.

was just wearing my new colourful sweater :(

INJURY / BL00D MENTION!

I was doin exercises n my pull up bar came loose and I got a metal bar to my face :( mainly my nose and it bled a lot and really really hurts. I was so scared I’d get a concussion cause I bumped my head a little but I think I’m okay as I didn’t fall far. Just feeling very sensitive and sore.

poor abigail got used as a handkerchief :( that’s my mommas friend left as she had to head home and couldn’t stay any longer. She’s my other mom and I love her so so so much and I just wanted to cling to her and cry and beg her to stay. thankfully mommas doing really well in hospital and she should be home by the end of the week.

decided to rewatch sleepytime and start ugly howling crying at it. Mommas surgery is tomorrow and I miss her so much it hurts and need her to be okay. She is my Chili

🍎 today has been really hard

🍎 needed some small time

☆ it’s not talked enough in regression about the hard big angry feelings. It’s not always relaxing and playing

☆ I want to yell and cry

☆ Throw my toys and push you away

☆ I don’t understand how to process these big feelings

☆ I can’t verbalise what I want

☆ All I want to do is scream and tantrum

☆ Things aren’t going my way and I’m not spoiled for feeling that

☆ I wanna scribble all over my pretty drawing in a black crayon

☆ It’s okay to feel this way

☆ It’s okay to get those feelings out