Personal updates

Hello hi hi, I am still dealing with things, but much less worse things now.

I escaped my abusive home and I've been somewhere safe! I have time to breathe.

I made pancakes for the first time ever

There is a cat here

No energy but still motoring, hopefully I'll get more to post more again someday

Life update

I'm getting out of my abusive house this week. End of the tunnel in sight. Thank you for the well wishes everyone, hopefully I'll be able to respond to them after some physical and mental recovery.

Starting to gain a praise kink where someone just praises me in such an exaggerated raw way where it can't be taken seriously but it still feels so good to hear

"You're so perfect, you've never done anything wrong, you're so good they should all grovel for you, they should all run their caring hands across your body and make it feel good, feeling good is how you're supposed to feel because you're such a good little girl"

I'm extra active here again lately because I'm potentially getting out of my abusive situation and the anxiety about what could go wrong is KILLING me

Anyway I'm browsing latex clothing and prosthetics I can't afford (YET) so the stress doesn't kill me

Yknow, honestly something I really fucking hate other kink blogs using the term "rape fetishizer" to describe blogs (people) they don't like.

I get that not everyone is into CNC or noncon of fictional and roleplay natures, I completely understand that, I get that it's triggering and uncomfortable to many, and everyone has every right to not want to be exposed to something they don't like and find personally upsetting.

But i HATE people using that as an excuse to treat the people who like things they don't like as "bad" or "less moral" or "oh you must be so EVIL because of YOUR interests"

Because anyone can easily give any kinks and interests a little look over and go "ew, a raging/brainwashed misogynist, you MUST hate women" or "ew, stop fetishizing queer people!" (and it's a queer blog lol) or "ew, stop fetishizing abuse!!!" to literally anything where someone might be uncomfortable in a fictional sitution.

Immediately, I can see someone acting this way and it can be turned around on them no matter what, like... everything is disgusting and evil in the eyes of pointing purist fingers at everything, glass house, etc.

ESPECIALLY in the kink community. Literally like 'fiction for me but not for thee'.

anyway TL;DR no one is more or less moral for the kinks they have oh my god shut up people's actual actions and intentions and treatment of real other living beings are what matter and some of you guys are really fucking rude to other living beings.

Also another reminder - I don't fuck with sharing around posts of other people's bodies that aren't from that person directly. Someone pointed out how creepy the lack of consent is and I realized I don't want to be apart of it.

I'm looking at you preggo blogs. I'm seeing a lot of y'all from that one post.

I'm especially uncomfortable with GIF blogs that have their own watermarks plastered all over someone else's body that they stole and are now claiming to be 'their' work. Do you not see how nasty you are?

Been inactive here for a while. Health got worse and I’m still trying to escape an abusive situation so unfortunately that doesn’t leave me as much energy for kinky posting here lately. I shall return someday.

Fellow transmasc folks i need to ask some NSFT advice

So, I got a little bullet vibrator pal of mine that I love but since things've been changing downstairs I feel like it's not cutting it anymore.

Too tiny, not powerful enough unless I have it at full charge every time (which might be the fault of the toy lol).

Anyone on T have a toy of there's they find really works for them?

Like bigger surface area, more power, etc. I don't know where to look :\

very stressed out trying to escape and abusive situation i need to masturbate about this

Personal practice of mine where I regress through writing to get a break from how awful and unsafe I feel in real life!

Getting to feel helpless and small and unknowing while being unconditionally cared for by some older loving figure.

Just for an evening, in a safe, secret environment of my own creation, then it's back to normal.

I'm not really allowed to not know things in real life, I have to try really hard to keep up, and I'm all I have to take care of myself while actively being abused, so... it's definitely helpful to get into that space for just a bit. It's the closest thing I get to a real break.

I like my crooked teeth and the way they're very slightly gapped. I like how my eyes look. I think my smile is cute. my acne scab looks like an adorable beauty mark. my eyebrows are thick and cool. my beard hair is thicker. my face is fuzzy. my profile is cool. my lips r plush.

my tummy is cute. my tummy hair is getting thicker. my body fat is evening out. my waist remains groovy. my butt is mine to squish. i hate my fingernails but that's my fault. my voice vibrates in my chest. my cock is small but it's mine. my body feels more like mine.

Things no one tells you about before starting HRT:

I want to sit on some fat throbbing dick right now but I'm stuck working on my covert years long operation to escape my abusive living situation insead lol