lmao you know, maybe it's not that i'm a chronic ghoster or that i'm bad at texting or the general Keeping in Contact with People thing. maybe i just don't like certain people enough. isn't this funny.

i've heard and read of this sentiment way too much that i think i internalized it bc i didn't want to feel like a bad person tbh. the one that goes: "it's not that i'm not replying only to you, i'm avoiding everyone right now" or something of that sort. nah.... i just don't really give a fuck about you !

it's either bc i don't like a person enough or a person doesn't sit right with me or i'm not comfortable enough. which obviously is natural when it comes to texting acquaintances or people from work etc and you honestly just have to get over it. but it is moreso concerning when it's someone with who we mutually call ourselves friends and consider ourselves to be close. and that's a pretty fucked up realization i'm having lol... bc lately i learned i CAN text people even when i feel bad mentally/physically. even if it's just nothings and how are yous and random tiktoks.... although i hate the culture around how are yous, they are truly sincere when i text them to people i genuinely care about...