S.Coups (최승철):
“I Love You Too Much”
synopsis: You and your group have to work on a Collab stage with SEVENTEEN again, which is the group your ex-boyfriend, Seungcheol is a part of. You both still love each other.
genre: angst, fluff, idol!au
characters: seungcheol x idol!reader (with mentions of other members)
word count: around 2.15k (I think)
a/n: happy birthday to our leader! S.COUPS!! I can't believe it won't be long until he and Jeonghan would have to enlist in the military... anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHOI SEUNGCHEOL!!! I love him so much, he's inspiring, beautiful, and perfect in all kinds of ways! + Congrats to everyone who gets to see Caratland 2021, I'm sad I can't see it but maybe I'll find a reupload somewhere...
You sat in the corner of the practice room, beside your group members, staring at the opposite side where your ex-boyfriend, Seungcheol sat.
It had been about half a year since you two broke up and though your days had continued to pass by, without him, you felt the emptiness in your heart, soul, and body. You weren't able to get over him and every few nights, you would miss him so much that you would have to torture yourself again by looking at your past videos and pictures with him that you couldn't bring the courage to delete.
You were just getting over him but now, that would be nearly impossible. Just being in the same room with him was making tears sting your eyes. How were you supposed to practice repeatedly for a month with him and proceed to perform a special stage with him?
As far as your professionalism could go, you knew that you wouldn't be able to do it. The love was still there, deep in your heart, and the lingering feelings were undeniable. You still loved him even after the breakup.
“It's okay,” Your groupmate said. “I'm sure it'll be fine.”
You shook your head and turned to her, holding back your tears. “How will it be fine?”
You brought your knees to your chest and buried your head to prevent yourself from crying out loud. “They hate me. It's not only Seungcheol who hates me, the members of SEVENTEEN do too. It's because I hurt him.”
“But you're hurt too,” your groupmate continued, patting your shoulder. “I know how much pain you have to deal with. I was there, on every night that you cried your eyes out missing him. Some days, you would even cry because something reminded you of him.”
You couldn't cry now. You couldn't.
Seungcheol didn't even know how hurt you were.