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Ezra, 21, they/them, icon by @/valentinesparda
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Some lighthearted AU offshoot where Jack’s relationship with Esther goes public and he eventually introduces her to the public so they’ll just stop speculating and freaking her out 😭

Is this made with that ask game I just reblogged in mind? Yes. Absolutely/lh

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Jack D/elroy (left): he/him

Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (right): they/she

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Proship + adjacent + other Murdoc selfshippers/oc x canon shippers DNI

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Of course I had to add Essie bc I’m a selfship blog first and foremost! (Their glasses are optional btw so that’s why you don’t see them in some art of her!)

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Jack Delroy (left): he/him

Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (right): they/she

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Proship + adjacent DNI

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why do you associate the songs with them (id eleborate but chronic makes thinking hard)

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WOOO HII no worries at all, this is great!/gen

OKAY SOOO

I’m just gonna go song by song and write a little blurb on each one! It won’t be long and detailed but you’ll get the gist of it haha!

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Short list of songs that are unbelievably Jack x Essie coded in one way or another

- “Goodbye Yellow Brick Road” by Elton John

Just. This song over all, peak representation of the way that Essie feels kind of tethered to Jack in a way and when she finally comes to the realization that he’s no good for her after the incident in the mental hospital, the way she is ultimately able to move on with her life .. ooughh/pos

- “Hermit the Frog” by MARINA

OH MY GODDD/pos so much abt this one, everything from, “I was the wrong damn girl in the wrong damn room” (Essie was never even supposed to be at that party she met Jack at to begin with) to the recurring mentions of ‘the devil’ with “I can’t help the devil likes to make my heart a double bed and I can’t help he sometimes likes to come and rest his little head” and “I went to the doctors believing the devil had control over me and I was finding it hard to breathe and finding it hard to fight the feeling” OOUUGHHH GOOD SHIT

- “Religion” by Lana Del Rey

The only partially requited devotion (Essie was on the giving end and Jack the taking) of having your lover be an idol of religion in your mind; the religious thematic tie in with the satanic themes of canon; the clear light that Jack brought into Esther’s life despite the fact that he was also bringing them down…

- “Haunted House” by Mckenna Grace

This ENTIRE song really, but particularly this bit:

“I get reminiscent

When somebody says your name

Almost glad I miss it

'Cause it's better than not feeling a single thing

Even after all the white lies, empty goodbyes

All the tears and all the times

You weren't there when I needed you to be

Hoping you're right where you wanna be

Even if it's not with me”

- “Favorite” by Isabel LaRosa

This is the origin of my ship tag for them, “darling can I be your favorite?” Of course, but also like. The implications of such a question.. can she be his favorite, ever? Will he ever love anyone the way he loved Minnie? No, probably not, she thinks.

- “Curses” by The Crane Wives

Idk man just listen to the song 😭 you’ll see what I mean

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Short list of songs that are unbelievably Jack Delroy x Esther Watkins coded in one way or another

- “Goodbye Yellow Brick Road” by Elton John

- “Hermit the Frog” by MARINA

- “Religion” by Lana Del Rey

- “Haunted House” by Mckenna Grace

- “Favorite” by Isabel LaRosa

- “Curses” by The Crane Wives

Pls feel free to and I encourage you to (/nf) send asks so I can elaborate on why I associate these songs (among others) with Jack and Essie!! Tyy!! :))

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WOOOO ANGST MOMENT!!!!

My headcanon/self insert lore weaved into the canon events of LNWTD!!

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Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (they/she) is a non-binary girl!

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Proship + adjacent DNI

Thinking abt the implications of this lore and how Essie is literally this story’s final girl.

She got out.

Despite her own battle with mental illness and emotional dependency on Jack, an unstable man in his own right, despite the horrifying descent of Jacks’s mental state happening before Essie’s eyes- she got out.

And she does her best to forget. Move on. Live her life to its fullest. And she does. She succeeds. She eventually finds love and a stable, successful career in astrophysics just like she wanted.

But every now and then the memories creep back to the forefront of her mind.

Memories of longing. Longing for the light and joy Jack brought her, even if he didn’t love her the same way she loved him- he was her sun and she was just a planet to him.

Memories of fear. Recalling the horrifying last encounter she’d had with Jack. He’d desperately insisted it wasn’t him- it was some malevolent entity burrowed deep inside him come up to the surface to attack her. “Abraxas”, he’d called it. She didn’t believe him at the time, walking out of the hospital doors and never looking back. But sometimes, just sometimes, she wishes she’d looked back. She wonders if she would have seen Jack in his eyes again- the Jack she knew when they first met.

She knows she would not have.

Still, she wonders.

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“I feel kinda ridiculous..”

“Nonsense, doll, you look lovely!”

“Really?”

“Really. You’re so pretty I could look at you forever..”

“… you’re tipsy.”

“Eh, maybe. Still pretty~”

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Blatantly obvious self insert wish fulfillment of me wanting to wear feminine clothing sometimes but feeling too ugly to do so without being mocked 😭

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Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (left): they/she

Jack D/elroy (right): he/him

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Proship + adjacent DNI

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