1. Okay, the worst??? Um.

Does this mean quality or like Bad Wrong Terrible id-fic?

Quality is this. Mary Sues and Gary Stus, terrible fandom clichés, it’s got it all, and it was one of the first bits of criticism I ever got. I keep that account up mainly to remind myself how far I’ve come and to humble myself when I think I was always at all successful at being a good writer.

Bad Wrong Terrible id-fic? God, take your pick. I was a fucked up ableist bastard of a late teenager after my mom died, and my Vam was full of this horrible awful shock value horror fic. I wrote rape from the rapist’s POV, rapist stepfather stalking his mute stepson (who, deeply ironically, fell in love with an anti-Meg nurse!Ville in the asylum he was in) ephebophilic coercion, illusion!Ville, Russian roulette, beyond fucked up violent gay chicken—and a sequel where they got worse and then went from hate to love, criminal/lovesick teenage accomplice, and much more, including death fic after death fic, but probably my worst of all time is kidnapping/torture with a sequel of necrophilia.

(God it makes my stomach squirm to give people access to these, but I would never hide my past. Once upon a time I was proud of these things. And of course, you are welcome to read them, if you dare.

As for “thought about writing”? I’ve never thought of things worse than this list.)

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4. Oh my god. /laughing at self. Um. Yeah, I read/write RPF/RPS.

Yes. A lot of it, actually. I’ve drifted in and out of it for almost my entire time in fandom. I sometimes dipped into Tom/Dan when I was in my huge Draco/Harry years. I was in Vam (Ville/Bam) from 2007 - 2011 and they’re still an OTP. I was huge into Andrew/Jesse during my TSN era (what fucking cuties oh LORD) in the most embarrassing way.  I also dipped into JoBros like I said, including Easy Academy with Band of Brothers and Disney actors? I did Cookleta (from American Idol) too with eliavasays and thank God, we held on to each other when I drifted out of that way too fast. And um, my second fandom after Harry Potter, was hockey RPS, and I wrote quite a bit of that. I watched a lot of MMC a while back and searched out a little Britney/Christina. I’ve read Backstreet Boys and ‘NSYNC fic (and in fact, I read Nick Carter/Ville Valo before I found any Vam). Sometimes I’m an embarrassingly devout lover of Louis/Harry from One Direction (and I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if they were a secret thing).

I’m not super into RPS right now, but I do sometimes read or flail over Misha/Jensen (and basically that is the only time I can stomach Jensen at all).

As for writing? I wrote Vam. Larry. Cookleta.  and that’s it. Unless TSN counts? RPF of RPF of RPF (fic based on a movie based on a book based on real people who by the time they got to the movie were completely different).

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10. Um…I’m not overly ashamed of anything as a rule, but. Maybe Gravitation? Looking back, that fandom kind of embarrasses me after what I know now about heteronormative seme/uke -type stuff and romanticized abuse and tsunderes (like Eiri Yuki) actually being raging dicks.

Also maybe JoBros, (though dgmw I love love love the friends I made there?) because at one point I loved that fandom, and I even read #Weecest-like things between them and got off on that. And yeah, I wouldn’t do that now, at all, and it kind of makes me squeamish to think about it. I just…don’t think that’s a thing people should do.

Beyond that, I can’t really think of any. I could tell you things I’ve done in fandom that now feel really humiliating to recall, but not fandoms themselves.

14. Agh, I feel like I’m really not that interesting when it comes to this cos again, I’m not really ashamed of much. Pretty much everybody I know has access to my Tumblr if they should so choose. I show stuff to my family and friends all the time. I post it to Facebook, even. Mostly they think I’m a weirdo, I guess? But they think that anyway. I’ve even floated the idea of being trans with them and despite their general #transphobia, gotten not much antipathy (though not much encouragement either), so they would barely be surprised by my bio either.

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Um…

Okay, this one’s hard at first because these are probably my three favorite ladies in the series. I’m not attracted to any of them romantically or sexually, but. Let’s figure this out.

Okay, Ruby has the proven potential to be abusive and rape me if we’re in love. Jo is working the most internalized misogyny and effemiphobia. Charlie is prolly the least reliable or seemingly inclined to settling down because she’s an adventurer, but, ironically, also the most trustworthy, imo.

The closest I feel to attraction (greyro) is Jo, because of her similarity to Dean (and the one I’d want closest in a more obligatory family relationship cos I’d feel safest is Charlie) and the fact that she seems safe about consent and inclined to settling down if she found the person, like he does (despite gross writing to the contrary) so I’m gonna go with:

Spouse: Jo.

Best friend: Ruby.

Sibling: Charlie.