Update:
I'm in a very bad mental place right now.
Please let those be the last few anons for a while. If you're inclined to send me shit to purposefully upset me to get some kind of sick pleasure out of leeching my desperate faith and the minimal certainty I am offered by seeing with my eyes in TV, please be a better person than that, for today at least.
I just failed the last class I could afford to fail without needing thousands of dollars to graduate college, after six years of work, because I don't have the cash to accommodate my being too fucked up to do college shit on time.
And my #Dean/Cas hope is fragile right now. My coping mechanism is fraying.
The combination of those two has me crying hysterically alone in my room.
I need a minute, okay.