Correct me if I’m wrong but this is the first time we see Dean after he beat the shit out of Cas, right?
And he’s passed out on the floor of some random motel and he clearly almost drank himself into a coma.
#another reason i don't really understand the 'no homo' feelings #i mean if that's what you got then that's what you got #but i see dean being devastated by his lack of control #and that he came so close to killing cas and that he did hurt him so badly #and he's repeating to himself what he said to cas -- i'm good. i'm good #because he's trying to convince himself #and he goes on the case to try to convince himself #that he's good. that he can do this #and he CAN'T #he's an absolute asshole to everyone #and he gets his temporary partner killed #sure he saved the victim and killed the monsters #but he got rudy killed #he hurt cas #he's NOT GOOD #he's not capable of making choices he can live with anymore #and that's why he contacts death #because he can't live with the choices he makes while he's under the influence of the mark #destiel #sad destiel but destiel #spn 10x22 cw #supernatural season 10 spoilers #spn s10 spoilers #spn 10x23 spoilers brother's keeper #spn 10x23 brother's keeper spoilers #suicide cw #for mention of dean contacting death (via)