Her experience with the Master must have been extremely traumatic… I don’t think she’s dealt with that on a conscious level.
#let’s think of all the things Buffy has suppressed and does not think about #all those things she doesn’t talk to anyone about #not just the stuff we saw happen to her and had to be traumatic as fuck #but also the stuff before the show started #like her first watcher being killed #Buffy was someone who kept bad shit bottled up right from the get go (via glompcat)
#I think it’s very important when you think about S6 #and how people were disappointed and annoyed with Buffy being depressed #but Buffy Summers’ story is also a story of facing trauma and mental illness #and Buffy starts to feel something off since the beginning #since her traumatic experience with the Master #and maybe even before #she suppresses all this feelings #because who can listen her? #who can say I understand without the quit being depressed or smile and stop #as if depression is a lighter you switch on and off #Buffy gives all these little signals even at the start #except that no one really see them #and the thing with vampires can also be interpreted like that #I think #both Angel and Spike are dead #they are death #and Buffy dances with them #Buffy find solace and comfort among graveyards and dead stones kissing Angel #kissing death #Buffy is the girl who dances with melancholia #and I’m forever grateful that the series doesn’t end in S5 #because she dances with melancholia in S6 and S7 #but at the end of the Hellmouth fight #after Spike dies and the whole city collapse #she looks back at her road #and smiles (via kikibluemay)