!!!!!!! I’m so happy for you (and so sorry that I took so long to answer this - I’m not on Tumblr very often anymore). It’s always better, in my opinion, to understand yourself in things like this. If you don’t know you, it’s hard to show you, y’know? Like. It’s hard to know what you want, what you need, what you should expect and ask for from others. I’m so glad that you took my help and found yourself out like that.As to Cas, uhhhhhhhh. I wish I had good news for you, but. The last few seasons have been pretty brutal to him and his most focal relationships, and honestly, I would stop watching, if I were you, after 13x06 at the latest. I stopped at 14x06, myself, which is horrifying to describe (but if you want the spoilers, just find my tag for that episode - it’s recent). It just gets worse and worse - especially with the advent of Jack - until Castiel is most of the time, barely recognizable, and never given the respect he deserves.I don’t plan to watch S15, for a reason, honestly. I don’t think the show respects the reality of Cas, as the queer neurodivergent person he is, or as the integral part of Dean’s life (at least, if not both Dean’s and Sam’s) he is, at all, so I’m mostly just holding on until the series is over and I can try and deal with the cathartic release of all those disappointed expectations they’ve been teasing us with fulfilling for a decade.(I’m sorry to say that, I doubt he’ll have a happy ending. They may, at most, give him one where he’s written as content, but Castiel, as he was and as he would be if they respected him as he is, is suffering in silence beneath that contentment. Where there’s fraternity instead of queerness, angelhood instead of humanness, etc.That’s the primary reason I stopped watching. Jack is/was the embodiment of a path chosen away from anything that would make Castiel genuinely happy [literally, in a couple of cases] - as opposed to what the show wanted to do with him that was heedless of who he is, and what he wanted or needed - and I couldn’t stand to watch that happen to a character who’s so me.)
