If I Knew Then: 17/30

I was really surprised at the direction the characters took me in this chapter, but I love Elsa’s character development so much in this. Liam does not appear in this chapter, but Elsa’s interactions with her sister, Killian, and others were so important for me to portray. I hope you enjoy her growth in this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it! This does have positive Millian, so be warned.  @optomisticgirl​ @profdanglaisstuff​ , and others in the CSRT discord chat, I finally managed to get playing chicken in this fic 😉 It wasn’t planned, but I love how it turned out.

And yes, according to Disney Fan Wiki, Kristoff’s last name is Bjorgman. Who knew?

Summary: In the Arendelle family, Elsa is the “good daughter.” In the Jones family, Liam is the “good son.” With their younger siblings causing their parents such heartbreak, the last thing either of them wants to do is let everyone down. And if that means keeping secrets, they will. After all, the whole church - the whole town - is watching. As the years pass, Elsa and Liam become closer and the secrets become heavier. Will it all eventually tear them apart? Also some CS, and a lot of Killian.

Rating: M

Trigger Warning: attempted rape in previous chapters, chronic anxiety, panic attacks, underage drinking, underage sex - I know that all sounds heavy, but I feel like I handle it sensitively, and all of that doesn’t appear in every single chapter. Just always want to be upfront about content!

Words: A little over 4k in this chapter

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Chapter 17: If Again

August 1999

Elsa was getting a crick in her neck from holding the phone between her shoulder and her ear. She leaned over her knees to swipe another toenail with “Frosted Blue” polish.

“We only have a few more weeks of summer break,” Tiana groaned on the other end of the line.

“Well,” Elsa’s tongue poked out of the corner of her mouth as she painted her pinkie toe, “we’ll be seniors, so that’s exciting.”

“I guess,” Tiana sighed.

“And we’re captain and co-captain of the squad this year.”

“That’s nice too,” Tiana conceded.

“And you’ll probably be both homecoming queen and valedictorian.”

“Don’t care about the first, and the second will probably have me in a straight jacket by the end of the year.”

Elsa chuckled goodnaturedly. “It must be so hard to be you,” she told her, voice dripping with sarcasm, “what with the burden of being beautiful, smart, and beloved by the masses.”

“It’s a heavy burden, but one I carry graciously.”

“Queen Tiana.”

“Queen Elsa.”

“Um, no. I’m more like your lady in waiting.”

“Hardly. Or if you are, it’s only because you hide. Which you shouldn’t, by the way.”

Elsa wrinkled her nose as she rolled bits of toilet paper and slid them between her wet toes. “I don’t hide.”

“Don’t start with me, girl.”

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If I Knew Then: 14/30

One thing I have tried to do with this story is show Liam and Killian as two sides of the same coin. They both feel immense pressure because of their father’s job, but they each deal with that pressure in vastly different ways. Yet, at the end of the day, they love and support each other. I love Liam in this chapter especially, and I hope you will too! (Because we’ve all been a little tough on him, myself included!) I always had this scene with Liam and his dad in my mind from the very beginning.

Summary: In the Arendelle family, Elsa is the “good daughter.” In the Jones family, Liam is the “good son.” With their younger siblings causing their parents such heartbreak, the last thing either of them wants to do is let everyone down. And if that means keeping secrets, they will. After all, the whole church - the whole town - is watching. As the years pass, Elsa and Liam become closer and the secrets become heavier. Will it all eventually tear them apart? Also some CS, and a lot of Killian.

Rating: M

Trigger Warning: attempted rape, chronic anxiety, panic attacks, underage drinking (previous chapters), and underage sex and pregnancy (discussed in this chapter) I forgot to mention this earlier, but the high school flashbacks have Millian, while the parts where they are older has CS.

Words: 4k and some change in this chapter

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Chapter 14: Because Love Only Comes Once in a While :Liam grapples with things that are out of his control, but when he chooses to stand up for something, Elsa has never been so proud of him.

April, 2003

Elsa groaned under her breath as she swiped her tip from the table that a family of six had just vacated at Granny’s. The mother had made a laundry list of impossible demands with her order, then had snootily asked if the macaroni and cheese on the kid’s menu was from a box, insisting that her kids only ate organic. Elsa had wanted to ask her why in the world they were eating at a diner, but she’d plastered a friendly smile on her face anyway. Then the father yelled at her when he thought their order was taking too long, and one of the kids threw a temper tantrum and slung apple juice all over Elsa. And in her hand was a dollar bill and two quarters. For all of that.

“They left a lousy tip, didn’t they?”

Elsa turned towards the voice as she slipped the small amount into the pocket of the apron tied around her waist. In the booth behind the loud family was a young man, probably in his early thirties, dining alone. He’d been polite and patient as the family ran her ragged and was now giving her a kind smile. Elsa deflated and smiled back.

“It wasn’t the best tip I’ve had all night,” she admitted as she came closer, holding her coffee carafe aloft. “Would you like a refill?”

He nodded, sliding his mug over. “I knew they’d be bad tippers the moment that woman rattled off her list of ten things to alter in her order,” he told her with a chuckle.

Elsa shrugged. “I don’t mind requests. You never know. People have allergies, health issues … “

“Fad diets they read about on the internet.”

Elsa laughed, and the customer joined her. “Can I get you anything else?”

He nodded towards the bar where Granny kept her pies lined up under glass. “That peach pie over there looks really good. I’ll have a slice of that.”

Elsa nodded, “Coming right up.”

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If I Knew Then: 12/30

Sorry it has been so long since I updated this story! I sort of got into a writing slump, especially where this fic was concerned. But now I am eager and excited about what is to come in this! I’ve written several scenes, and chapter 13 is almost finished for next week! I hope this writing streak lasts …

Having said all of that, this chapter is pretty short. Things are really going to start happening in the next chapter. Consider this a sweet little filler chapter before the angst begins to hit harder!

It’s also my head canon that Liam Jones is just as much the ladies man as Killian and just as capable of turning a woman to mush with his innuendos. This is a hill I am willing to die on.

Summary: In the Arendelle family, Elsa is the “good daughter.” In the Jones family, Liam is the “good son.” With their younger siblings causing their parents such heartbreak, the last thing either of them wants to do is let everyone down. And if that means keeping secrets, they will. After all, the whole church - the whole town - is watching. As the years pass, Elsa and Liam become closer and the secrets become heavier. Will it all eventually tear them apart? Also some CS, and a lot of Killian.

Rating: M

Trigger Warning: attempted rape, chronic anxiety, panic attacks, underage drinking (all in previous chapters), and underage sex and pregnancy (alluded to in this chapter)

Words: 1,700 and some change in this chapter

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Chapter 12: Three Rows to the Left

February, 2003

Elsa grunted as she contorted her arms around her back, spinning like a puppy trying to catch its tail. She dropped her arms and huffed out a breath, sending a wayward curl floating away from her cheek. She took a minute to catch her breath then continued stubbornly twisting her neck and straining her fingers to reach the zipper of her dress.

She was still twisting and turning in frustration when the doorbell rang. More frantic than ever, she continued struggling with the zipper as she made her way to the door. She unlocked it and yanked it open with one hand, while keeping hold of the back of her dress with the other. When it swung fully open, Liam stood speechless, his mouth falling open. He tentatively held out the bouquet of flowers for Elsa to take.

“Did I put my foot in my mouth already?”

“What?” Elsa huffed, pushing back strands of hair that were beginning to stick to her forehead. She hoped her deodorant was still holding up. Her hair sure wasn’t. And all she wanted was to look perfect for their first Valentine’s Day.

“You’re scowling at me,” Liam clarified.

“Oh,” Elsa sighed, her arm beginning to ache from its twisted position behind her back. “I’m scowling at this dress, not you. Anna left with Kristoff already, and I can’t … get … the zipper … “

She strained some more as Liam chuckled. He stepped through the door and set the bouquet down on the coffee table.

“Stop it before you pull something, I’ve got you. Now turn around,” he instructed.

“This is so embarrassing,” Elsa groaned.

“Why should it be? I believe this is a common chore of boyfriends and husbands.”

She could feel his breath ruffling her hair as he came closer, and warmth spread down her spine. His fingers lightly brushed the skin at the nape of her neck.

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If I Knew Then: 9/?

I have actually had this written for awhile, but I kept waiting to post it thinking I would add January, 2003 to it. However, here we are, four months since I last updated this, and still the muse has been uncooperative. So, I decided a short chapter was better than making you wait any longer.

I ADORED writing Anna and Killian in this chapter. I’ve got to give credit to @welllpthisishappening​, who also imagines these two as siblings getting each other into and out of trouble. Reading her fic Tripping Over the Blue Line definitely added fuel to this fire, lol! Hope you all enjoy it.

Summary: In the Arendelle family, Elsa is the “good daughter.” In the Jones family, Liam is the “good son.” With their younger siblings causing their parents such heartbreak, the last thing either of them wants to do is let everyone down. And if that means keeping secrets, they will. After all, the whole church - the whole town - is watching. As the years pass, Elsa and Liam become closer and the secrets become heavier. Will it all eventually tear them apart? A Frozen Jewel story but also with some CS, and a whole lot of Killian.

Rating: M

Trigger Warnings: descriptions of chronic anxiety and panic attacks; attempted sexual assault; underage drinking; underage sex (though no smut)

Words: only a little more than 1k in this very short chapter

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Chapter Nine: It Comes Crawling

January, 1999

Elsa startled at first when she heard a crash on the front porch, but when it was followed by familiar laughter, she relaxed slightly.

But only slightly.

She rose from the couch, wrapping a throw around her shoulders. The only light was the flickering of the television. She was watching Emma Thompson and Kate Winslet navigate the ups and downs of romance in Sense & Sensibility for about the dozenth time. Yes, it was a Friday night, but so what? Elsa didn’t mind solitude once and awhile especially after an exhausting week of the social gauntlet called high school.

When Elsa neared the living room window facing the porch, she saw the source of the sounds. Anna had stumbled up the porch steps, and Killian was trying to get her steady on her feet. Both of them were laughing hysterically, however, which made the simple action difficult. Elsa lifted her eyes heavenward as she shoved the blanket from her shoulders and marched to the door. The frigid January air hit her thin pajamas like a knife, and she wrapped her arms around her torso.

“What is going on?” she hissed to her sister and friend.

“Oh, no worries, love!” Killian told her with a wide grin as he bolstered Anna around the waist and pulled her forward. “Your sister’s just had a few too many libations, that’s all. She just needs to sleep them off.”

Anna giggled as she blinked up at her older sister. “I like rum,” she whispered, “a lot.”

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