I wish I was aromantic in addition to being asexual. Wanting romance/a partner is exhausting, I think about it all the time and yet it’s been years without anything going anywhere. I wish I could just be fine on my own, but there’s just this void that aches. Love is stupid, aroaces have the right idea.
I fucking hate my middle zone of being too sex repulsed to ever be with someone who needs sex from their romantic partner but also being a hopeless romantic who would actually kill someone for sensual touch right now, and there for needs a romantic partner, while also being masc so everyone woman I talk to wants/expects me to top them.