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the light of god burns so bright it will consume you. galahad. galahad step back
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do you think kay knew from the moment he held a teeny tiny arthur in his maybe eight year old arms that he was going to be second to him, always. do you think he knew it and didn't quite understand the feeling yet. do you think he grew up with arthur not even belonging to him and still, still always the favourite. do you think he pressed down the jealousy in favour of letting his love for arthur bloom.
do you think he knew, deep down, that he was not important. the story could continue without him. arthur could continue without him. as much as arthur insisted otherwise, do you think kay knew that the court would run fine without him. that he was not needed. and still. he stayed, he took his place at arthur's side—
(always his side, opposite to guinevere. even gawaine didn't take that, even launcelot didn't take that. a mirroring. brotherly love to romantic. arthur was not allowed to have a favourites as king, kay knew)
—and loved him dearly. as a brother, not a king. kay could not bring himself to love arthur as a king, not when he'd seen that steady grin and those golden curls morph from the ditzy boy he used to know into... this. a beautiful, just king. who refused to love kay as a knight, as a subject, as anything but a brother. who treated kay as above him.
do you think kay watched with terror-gripped sadness as arthur found out about launcelot's betrayal. about guinevere's treachery. kay had known. he'd always known. and he'd not realised it until far, far too late.
do you think kay is the first one who's seen arthur cry. do you think kay is the only one, alongisde guinevere, who's seen arthur cry.
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Sunrise
Being self indulgent with mixed media, never mind that I think both of them wake up before the rooster farts for it's cute. Also finally got the marker colour for Bedwyr's skin colour that ran out like months ago. Unfortunately now I ran out of a colour I use for shading Kei's skin. Oh well life is a cabaret and I had fun at least.
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evrybody hate me and want me dead. except for god he said faggot! you will live forever
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Everyone waking up in Avalon post-camlann where they just have to kind of deal with each other until it's time to come back like they're in the world's worst sitcom as the last few people trickle in as they die from old age
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lament for sir kay by me. thinking about him always. i can't imagine having my younger brother become king and. like. just. what the fuck. i love him. no one understands him like i do.
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palomides and his wound
'Mervayle what hit mente': Interpreting Pained Bodies in Malory's "Morte Darthur" ELLY MCCAUSLAND
https://www.jstor.org/stable/26443628
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Working on my silly little comic again!
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“About what you saw–”
“I didn’t see anything because I’ve been in here all morning and so I couldn’t possibly have seen a thing, you understand?”
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best part of le morte is when malory stops the whole narrative to talk about his favourite barely relevant guy tristan and his wacky adventures for several hundred pages before cutting back to the original plot thread where it is later announced tristan and most of his friends died offscreen
Kay will point at an orphan, ask "is anyone going to adopt that", and not wait for an answer
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depressed? have you tried...
- getting theological in the fanfic?
- dreaming of chasing after white harts?
- understanding your own trauma through the lens of a legendary knight?
these WILL cure you. follow for more #helpful tips
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you didn't even take a lock of my hair into battle so i dont know what they fuck you are doing ocming into my inbox and asking me for shit. ugly bitch i dont even want ur fealty anymore damn
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Of the many random Vulgate details that swirl in my brain one of the ones I think about the most is the fact that Dodinel was just sat at the Arthur's feet one time.
From Part 3 Chapter 74, Page 247 of The Vulgate Lancelot
Arthur is sitting with all his knights at this point so Dodinel is presumably just...chilling on the floor right where Arthur's chair is. It's such a cute and funny visual to imagine.
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It’s Sebile day! Everyone give it up for medieval wlw who kidnap Lancelot!
Shoutout to @gawain-in-green for the design, and @beheadaed, @lanzelet and @lesbianrenard for help with research