It doesn’t matter what you are, it matters what you do. And even monsters can do good in this world. 

People? We’re hardwired to want closure. You know? 

13x04 ( ´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` )

And even monsters can do good in this world.

I’m… seeing some people who are criticizing Sam for mentioning that he felt sad about the fact that Mary’s connection was primarily with Dean, saying that expressing those feelings was somehow blaming Dean, and that Sam is a source (the source?) of Dean’s self-loathing because he … apparently “blames Dean for things that aren’t his fault.” Sam even mentioning that he thought Mary interacted with Dean more (calling him more, talking with him more, etc.) is not about Sam’s grief… nooo, it’s about Dean.

Like. Sam expresses his grief for the first time in a very long time and it is somehow an affront to Dean. Let me be clear: it has been literal seasons (plural; many of them) since Sam has actually gotten defensive on his own behalf. He has shut himself down so effectively that he almost never gives vent to any emotions that could be perceived as negative (for his own sake, at least). And he finally does it. He finally talks. And somehow, that’s wrong.

But Dean expressing the pain of his loss by tearing Jack down and tearing Sam down and telling Sam that he has forgotten about their losses and that he’s not doing his job and that (implicitly, accidentally, without malice, but it’s still there), that people born with the capacity for evil are, in fact, evil. And you know what? Dean doesn’t have healthy coping strategies for dealing with loss and I get that. It’s established fact. 

But people blaming Sam for speaking out just baffles me. And he wasn’t even blaming Dean. He stated his feelings about Mary when Dean started mocking him in front of the therapist.

Sorry for the bitterness, it’s just that I can’t see anything clearly beyond all these glaring double standards.

Sam said what I felt and thought all through s12!! Here he is, getting the chance to really know his mom for the first time ever, and she left by ep3. And then she DID only really maintain contact through Dean, the son who knew her well enough to rattle off random details in the s12 premiere to prove his identity.

And then you had Sam–who had to ask Dean every few episodes what Mary was up to, and who tried so hard to keep Dean soft towards her when she struggled in this new world. Sam, who wasn’t allowed to ask questions about her growing up for fear of angering the two men who remembered her. Sam, who only got to bond with Mary by hunting with the BMOL and doing the one thing neither wanted in the name of “the greater good.”

I love Dean and 100% understand his character this season. But Sam’s outburst was for Sam. He’s allowed to be angry and terrified at the idea of losing his second (or kinda first) chance at having his mother. And bc he’s been burying all his grief and fear the past 3 episodes, Dean’s assumption is that Sam ISN’T grieving or terrified (understandable seeing as Dean isn’t in a headspace to analyze much).

It needed to be said. Sam needed to say it. And Dean needed to hear it.

Holy FKHASLKJ THIS EPISODE GIVES ME LIFE Sam just actually talked about his feelings about Mary and his grief about never having a relationship with her and his sadness that Dean was always the one she turned to. Sam just actually gave vent to some emotions for the first time in 84 years. Someone hold me.

I’m… seeing some people who are criticizing Sam for mentioning that he felt sad about the fact that Mary’s connection was primarily with Dean, saying that expressing those feelings was somehow blaming Dean, and that Sam is a source (the source?) of Dean’s self-loathing because he … apparently “blames Dean for things that aren’t his fault.” Sam even mentioning that he thought Mary interacted with Dean more (calling him more, talking with him more, etc.) is not about Sam’s grief… nooo, it’s about Dean.

Like. Sam expresses his grief for the first time in a very long time and it is somehow an affront to Dean. Let me be clear: it has been literal seasons (plural; many of them) since Sam has actually gotten defensive on his own behalf. He has shut himself down so effectively that he almost never gives vent to any emotions that could be perceived as negative (for his own sake, at least). And he finally does it. He finally talks. And somehow, that’s wrong.

But Dean expressing the pain of his loss by tearing Jack down and tearing Sam down and telling Sam that he has forgotten about their losses and that he’s not doing his job and that (implicitly, accidentally, without malice, but it’s still there), that people born with the capacity for evil are, in fact, evil. And you know what? Dean doesn’t have healthy coping strategies for dealing with loss and I get that. It’s established fact. 

But people blaming Sam for speaking out just baffles me. And he wasn’t even blaming Dean. He stated his feelings about Mary when Dean started mocking him in front of the therapist.

Sorry for the bitterness, it’s just that I can’t see anything clearly beyond all these glaring double standards.