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the parallels between dean killing amy in front of her son’s eyes and azazel killing mary in front of sam (and john and dean) physically pain me.
amy and mary both did what they had to to save their sons, then both mary’s sons grew up hunting the thing that killed their mother, while amy’s son told dean, “the only person I’m gonna kill is you” setting him on the same path of revenge that destroyed the winchester family.
Old Time - Good Memories
2.04 | Children Shouldn’t Play With Dead Things
Whatever you do, don’t think about Sam walking away from home after the big blowout with John, tears in his eyes, refusing to look back because he has to be strong.
Don’t think about Sam’s first night alone, spending it on a bus that had seen better days, springs digging into his back as he tries to get comfortable.
Don’t think about Sam at a payphone dialing his brother’s number, listening to it ring, so close to begging to come back but hanging up before he could answer because this is the choice he made and he has to see it through.
Just don’t think about Sam being alone for the first time in his life with nothing but a duffle bag and a few crumpled up dollar bills.
2.04 | Children Shouldn’t Play With Dead Things
— John Winchester’s Journal
You’re the one who said don’t come back, Dad.
1.22 | Devil’s Trap
2.07 | The Ususal Suspects
1.16 | Shadow
… NO.
1.10 | Asylum
Yeah. You left. Your brother and me, we needed you.
They all say we’ll say yes. What if they’re right?
Exactly. Sam really wanted safe. Hell, some of his best memories in "Darkside of the Moon" were of things others took for granted, like a thanksgiving dinner with a girl he'd at eleven or twelve, a dog, school. It's just really depressing that Sam is hated on for all of this. I really want Sam to have a storyline, where when he was a kid he confided in another student about how much his life scared him. Because it's the truth. He was scared of what killed Mary killing them in "AVSC".
I don’t get why people are calling Sam selfish or not wanting to be considerate of Dean.
Those were separate desires from Dean, probably some were related to Dean, but those were things that Sam saw other people have, and he looked at his own life and saw just how much he was missing out on. For Sam, heaven was sitting down at a regular table and enjoying a meal, not eating convenience store food from the microwave.
Like, how can one look at Sam and call him selfish for wanting these things? People are understanding of Dean’s struggles with his childhood, but you can’t be for Sam? Look at how the kid grew up, it’s normal for wanting things you can’t have or never had, and want them.
Why are you calling a child who has grown up in a broken family in an impossible situation all his life, desiring to get away from that and its unsatisfying ways selfish and self-centered? He wanted away from the abusive and neglectful setting, and you have the audacity to call a child like that selfish? He is trying to improve his life, but oh, he was selfish and turned his back on his family, it doesn’t matter what the situation is.
If that’s how you’re gonna view a child who has grown up in that type of setting and wanting better for themselves, you really should stay away from them.
