Chapter 7 is up!
The final installment of my Tamlin/Lucien slash fic is up on AO3!
I seriously had such a blast writing this, I didn't expect it to be so all consuming in my brain, haha! I've thought about nothing else for the last couple months, and I'm a little sad the journey is over.
But I'm planning on reading the rest of the ACOTAR series, and posting my first impressions here on tumblr. So if you're interested in my thoughts, please follow! The community here has been so fantastic, everyone is so passionate over these stories, it's amazing to be a part of. :)
Here's a sneak peak of the beginning of the chapter!
He was taken aback, unprepared for such a direct confrontation. Avoiding my eyes, he stared at his drink, bowing his head slightly in shame. “I deeply regret last night,” he said. My mouth went dry, and my heart sank into my stomach. There was my answer, plain as day. Even though I’d just told myself I could bear the pain and bury my feelings, I wasn’t expecting the heartbreak to be this excruciating. I felt like I’d just been eviscerated, my guts spilling onto the floor. “I’m so sorry, Lucien,” he said. “It seems these days all I can do is hurt the people I love most.” He tried not to let his self-loathing show. But despite his glamor charms, I could see that he really believed he was only capable of inflicting pain. And it weighed on him heavily. “I was so selfish,” he continued. “I never realized how much of a burden Fire Night was for you. I had fooled myself into thinking that…” he trailed off. “I mean, last night, when… No, let me start over.” He’d never been very good at articulating himself. I said nothing, and waited with bated breath for him to compose his thoughts. “At Calanmai during the ritual, I was able to expel the magick and satisfy the spirits with Feyre. One coupling, and they were gone. It was such a relief, having my power back.” I felt the knife in my heart twist with his words. “But after the festival ended, we retreated to our bed. I laid next to her and I felt nothing. Only crushing emptiness, like a part of me was missing. It took me almost until dawn to understand what it was.” He finally raised his eyes to meet mine. “I realized that there was really only one person I wanted to share Fire Night with.” My breath caught in my throat. I looked at him in disbelief, too stunned to respond. “You deserved so much better than what I offered,” he finished.
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