cyanprose

Heck yeah, it's my one day off this week. Maybe I'll get to write today!

...Nope, not at all, I got nothing.

It's the holiday season, so that means more hours at work, few days off, and not a whole lot of writing time. I'm gonna do my best to write when I can (bc otherwise I go batty) but the holidays suck.

My friend and I went to a new Asian buffet, and they have the best crab rangoon I've ever had at that kind of buffet. I don't know if I got lucky today but those little fried guys had bellies on them, with so much filling. I ate six there and honestly, I'm craving six more. That and the sauteed mushrooms they had. I could've cleared out the serving tray of the mushrooms.

While I'd like to have two weeks alone in the Void Where Everything's Okay with everything I love and enjoy doing, I'll have to take the three day weekend coming to me.

you mean, I gotta go to work tomorrow sober and clear-headed and smile???

I hate it when I have all this urge to write, and Life gives me two hours...next week, choose one only

I'm not ready for two months of Christmas... I like it well enough but it's so everywhere all the time, it's overwhelming and all-consuming that's unlike any other holiday

I haven't even really gotten to celebrate Halloween like I wanted to this year

Good news! I got my "Angels" chapter back from my beta and I'm working on editing the chapter now. I hope to have the chapter up by Halloween because I feel like it would be an appropriate read this spooky season.

I still haven't figured out this whole work-life balance thing. Sometimes I do for a while but eventually I get off track again. It really does depend on my work schedule, how many days I have and whether my days off are close.

I haven't been creative or been taking care of myself for a while but it's really hit the past two weeks since I've been working a lot. Every day just feels like I just have time to get ready for work.

But my schedule is easing up a bit next week so it's only four more days then I can breathe a little. Maybe. Until the holiday season kicks into gear, then I'm just screwed.

Everyone always complains that "Wonderwall" was the overplayed, just learning guitar song, but I never heard that song being practiced growing up. I literally had to look up that song bc I didn't know what it sounded like.

For my high school, the song everyone practiced was "Smoke on the Water", and to this day, hearing that song (well, the opening chords) fills me with a deep, irrational rage that borders on madness. My personal hell will include being stuck in a small, inescapable room with fifteen teenage boys playing the opening at various intervals.

I'm not looking forward to finding out how my back feels tomorrow morning after my stupid slip and fall earlier today. Impact seemed to be focused on my upper back and the back of my head, so yea...that's gonna be fun.

I swear I've been trying to take care of myself, not destroy myself.

I wish I had the superpower to spilt into multiple people. I need a me to write everything, a me to watch all the shows, a me to watch all the movies, a me to read all the books, a me to go to work, a me to get better at drawing, a me to finish botw/totk, and probably a me to take a nap.

Oh, and a me that's on call to run errands/go to doc appointments.

I spent the day writing, and even with exercise breaks, my lower back is killing me.

...I guess I should've taken more exercise breaks.

Maybe I'm biased bc I love Halloween and would/do decorate for it year round, but I find it waaaaay more creepy if a house is decorated for Christmas all year long than Halloween.

I'm not looking forward tomorrow to my kidney doctor being irritated at me for not losing much weight. I admit it's my fault. I lost motivation to exercise and dance, but I still enjoy both. It's also been a hundred degrees outside most of the summer. His weight loss meds didn't work either, so bleh.

l might be cutting up the next Angels chapter again. The scene I finished today might be a good place to end the chapter and have the next three scenes a part of a new chapter. I'll have to think about it more in the morning

Got my chapter back from my beta so after an edit or two, they'll be a new Angels chapter up soon