Miss Usagi life update:
A couple weeks ago, a company called me to ask if I could come in for an interview for a technical writing position. I said yes, even though I was terrified. I’ve never worked full time, or had a job like that. (Plus, it’s a bit of a commute.)
Anyway, I was able to overcome my nervousness, and I felt pretty good about the interview. I just told myself to pretend like I was going to visit some friends I haven’t seen in awhile, a trick my dad taught me.
They called me a couple days after the interview and offered me a job. I accepted.
Monday, I start. I’ve had many a panic attack thinking about the first day. It’s for quite a bit of money, at least, more than I’ve ever made, and I like them. I really do. I want to do well.
My mom took me shopping for job clothes. I’m insecure about my looks, so I was worried, but she soothed me and told me, “Dress how you want. Show them your best, most comfortable self. I promise they’ll see the beauty in you, even if you don’t.”
She also took me for a new haircut, with the hairdresser I’ve been seeing since I was 12. She told me: “Everyone gets nervous when they do something new. I’m in my 60′s, and I still do. Just know that the people in charge will know how you feel, it’s healthy. You’re nervous because you care.”
I decided to tell my dad when I got the job offer, and he was incredibly discouraging, (”Are you sure they’ll like you? It probably won’t work out. Oh by the way your stepgrandfather died today. Just so you know.”) which hurt me a lot, but I’m going to be okay.
In the middle of all this, my wonderful partner also got a job.
I’m very nervous, but I think my life might actually be...working out?
A couple weeks ago, I was sobbing and thinking I wanted to die. Now, I’m blissful.
Your entire life can turn around so easily. Please remember that. I want you to be around to see it.
