You don't see that I can't change what I've done, I can only change the me now I can't blame you, I hate me too But I hated the me then, more

It isn't who I am now, no I've changed You can't know, you can't see But it just isn't me, So if you don't mind, could you give me forgiveness?

You say I'm the one to blame, No I can't argue, you're right I can't put up a fight, I simply say yeah,

Because yeah, what I did was wrong I know that,  so could you please, forgive me? That was me then, not the new me No, maybe you're right now too

Maybe I won't change, no maybe I can't Maybe you're right, maybe we should say goodbye Maybe I'm right, maybe I should just die I can't change, no I'll always be this way

I can't change, so maybe I'll just leave I'll leave this life, a huge and three tears You won't know, my last smile, hiding the tears I hate myself so much, I wish I could change

Haven't I changed? I've tried so hard It's been years now, But I still feel so low I'm still broken and twisted,

I can't understand my own emotions, I can't understand why I do the things I do, I can't understand the things you do I can't understand my own self

I wish I knew, how to change I'm so lost, and I hate it so You hate me too, I know You told me so, in the car

I know I hurt you, I know I still do One last time, to ease the pain? One last time, before the pain? One single day,

One day of happiness, One perfect day, my last gift to you I'll do my best, to make you happy, and me too We'll have fun, like we used to

We'll say goodbye, I'll take you home A smile and a wave, before the tears flow A note on the kitchen counter, sorry I had to go My parents will see tomorrow, and you'll know then too

I've said my last goodbye, for the fiftieth time You'll think, it's just me acting up again You'll think, I'm just saying it again But I'll be gone, under the bridge

Water under the bridge, washing away my sins I believe you'll miss me, but in the end I know you'll be better, with a heart to mend I'm sorry to have hurt you again,

I don't know what to do, I hate myself so much I don't know how to save us, when I'm so lost I need you to pick me up, but you hate me too, So I'll throw myself down, six feet under the riverbed

I used to look to the sky, Now I simply bow my head and wonder why I laugh and smile like the rest, But I've stopped giving my best I wonder if you remember, 18 years ago in December, Did you think I'd grow up and succeed? It looks like I'll just cost you one less mouth to feed I'm tied and I'm broken, Your love is just a token, A symbol of affection, More like an infection I'm tired of this life, I'm tired of not being able to try, I'm tired of myself, I'm tired of saying goodbye

You told me goodbye, but I just didn't understand I laughed, and said I'll see you tomorrow I couldn't see, that you were filled with sorrow How could I have known? I told you goodbye, but you just didn't understand I held back my tears, how could I tell you That I wouldn't be here anymore, and then, as if on cue You smiled and said you'll see me tomorrow I whispered a goodbye, and as you climbed the hill I shed a tear, a tear of happiness, I hope you'll see I hope that you'll go on being happy, without me Goodbye forever, because I love you Didn't you know, you were my bestfriend? How can I go on, without you today, without you tomorrow? Didn't you know that without you, I'd be filled with sorrow? I blinked, and then you were gone, oh how could I have known?

You keep saying that word, I keep asking why, But no, that doesn't make you care, You keep saying goodbye For you and I, It isn't quite the same, Nothing left to hold onto, And I'm the only one to blame, As the blood drips from my arm, I see that word, and wonder how You can say that, when I'm like this But I think I get it now You don't understand, These last few weeks, have been bleak I've been holding onto you, But even still, I'm too weak To resist this urge, To say goodbye, But what's there to keep me here? I wonder, if you'll wonder why

I Wish I Hadn't

Goodbye my beautiful friend This is the end My last smile For a long while The final tear As I begin to feel fear Everything turns black Yes there's no going back I fall down And can't help but frown My pitiful existence No more resistance I can hear them shout I hear them running about Knocking on my door I'll see them no more My eyes fall shut As blood gushes from the cut I say my final goodbye And wish I hadn't, as I die

Roses are red, Might aswell be dead, So hopeless, Sorry for the mess

Blew his brains out, and now there's no reason to pout, They bury him under the old oak, and crying, with all the old folk

His family doesn't know why, they never got a chance to say goodbye, and they didn't know, That he was so low

But that's okay, Because now he will lay, no longer in pain, Just hopeless

I don’t know why, But it always comes back to this, And as I cry, I push the blade farther

Should I Say Hello

Some days,

I just can't go on,

Some days,

I just want to break

Some days,

I just want to say Hey I'm not bad Hey, I'm just a person Why do you get mad At everything I say

I don't get Why I'm never enough If you haven't seen yet, The cuts on my arms

Come more and so many more, How is there any blood left, When there's nothing left to bleed for, I just wonder,

Do you even care? All I ever hear, Is you saying I shouldn't breath air, And it comes to this,

How much more can I stand? How much more before I give up? How much more before someone offers a hand? Should I just give up now?

Or should I say hello...

Now That I'm Gone

Some days, I can't help but break

Some days I just don’t feel too great

I just want to say,

I can’t take this

One last kiss

And I’ll be on my way

One last day to say goodbye

And one last time to put on a tie

You’ll see me laying there

Wondering if you ever really knew

That all those things I said were true

I’m too depressed to go on

I’m too far gone

Cause life is just a con

It tricks you into thinking it’s great

But it’s a curse,

And eventually they’ll take you away in a hearse

I know you don’t understand

But who could every understand me?

All you people, why’d you let me be

Why couldn’t you have cared

Oh well, lets just forget it

Its been fun, but only a tad bit

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

I don’t have any un-granted wish

And hey there’s plenty more sea for the rest of you fish,

Now that I’m gone

What's Best

I tried to be something But I can't be anything That's worth living for Everything has become worthless And I've wanted so much more But maybe, I should just give up I've changed so much for you And in the end, the days left are few I wish I could say that I'll try I wish I could say I'll be strong I wish I could say I won't cry I wish I could promise I'll keep living So many things we've said, that words can't mend So I'm sorry to say, this has to end I'm sorry to say goodbye But maybe this is how it's suppose to be When all I've been doing, is living a lie My life has become worthless So what more can I say? But have a good day, Maybe you'll stare, Maybe I'll look back, But you'll never see how much I care, You'll never understand that this is best for you and I

As depressed as I am, maybe it'll get better..

I'm Broken

It’s hopeless baby doll I’m ready to fall Nothing left to hold on to And of everyone, just a few See the scars  I wish there was another way Lets say goodbye, what do you say? I wish this wasn’t the end, But nothing helps to mend The broken heart inside  I’ve tried for years, And with countless tears, I’ve come to realize That to be happy is to fantasize And when I wake up,  Life comes back Everything hurts, like an attack I feel so numb, I feel so lost How can I explain the cost Of these thoughts  On the outside i smile, And die inside all the while, This can’t be the way, But what more can I say, I’m broken

Goodbye

I never feel that I'm enough I never say that I'm alright Everytime that we have a fight All my memories come back Every drop of blood Everytime I let fall a tear Every beckoning fear Comes back And I wonder All this pain inside of me Is this how life should be? I just can't take it anymore I've lived sixteen years More than enough to realize Every happiness I can fantasize Is just a lie Every beauty I see Is just a fake And anything a person could make Is done by machine No more love in this place Only pain What more could I gain Except a terrifying desire To end it all So it comes to this, Just one last chance to miss To make my life something better I wish I could I say I wasn't so weak I wasn't so bleak But let's face it I'm nothing I'm crumbling I'm falling I'm turning to dust My last breath As I sing this fair melody Will anyone even have seen The signs before this.. I bid farewell It's been an adventure That shall not continue anymore It's time to say goodbye

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I'm so sad, I just feel dead, Every day is a fight, And I bleed every night, Every day I think, That maybe next time, I won't feel like living is a crime, I'm not okay,