:O HOW DARE YOU NOT BE IN LOVE WITH HOW Q CORONATES HIS FUTURE LIFE PARTNER: I BELIEVE IN YOU, EL. AND THEN ELIOT CLASPING Q'S HAND AND HIS FOREARM IN THE LOVING BOND OF TRUST BETWEEN THEM. HONESTLY, MY LORD, WHO ARE YOU AND WHY ARE WE FRIENDS. (I considered uncapslocking but I wanted you to know how upset I was. Goodbye.)
NO. LOOK. YOU’RE VERY RIGHT AND VALID. I HAVE BEEN A BLIND, BLIND FOOL.
BUT.
We need to take into consideration that this was two years ago. Two years ago Me was a real dumbass. They were also convinced they were straight and cisgendered. L O L. But more importantly, because of the way I consumed media and the way queer ships used to be considered a “crack” pairing, it never occurred to me that this could be a real thing. It’s why I take such care and pay so much attention to all that now. A lot of my growth and development came from the realisation of “Oh wait. I feel that way. Why can’t that be valid?” (Honestly, I was also not Q’s biggest fan because I saw too much of myself in him and was like, “OH GOD THESE ARE MY WORST BITS.” But now I’m in a place where I’m actually proud of him and his journey because he grows and matures so much and I would fight anyone who hurts a hair on that floppy haired sweetheart. Two years is such a long time. DAMN.)
But also, I cannot state this hard enough, you really cannot underscore how much a dumbass I was. I just hide it better now.
BUT YES. IN REWATCHING THAT YOU CANNOT HELP BUT NOTICE HOW INCREDIBLY ROMANTICALLY LOADED THAT SCENE IS. IT’S SUCH A THING THAT THEY LOVE AND TRUST EACH OTHER SO WHOLLY LIKE THAT. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. AND I LOVE THAT THE SHOW HAS NEVER SHIED AWAY FROM SHOW THAT AFFECTION. THEY’RE ALWAYS SO SOFT AND TACTILE WITH EACH OTHER. I LOVE THAT SCENE WHERE Q WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THEM SLEEPING TOGETHER BUT ELIOT IS JUST LIKE “DON’T OVERTHINK THIS.” BECAUSE HE WANTS HIM TO TRUST THAT THINGS WON’T CHANGE BETWEEN THEM. BECAUSE HE’S ALWAYS LOVED HIM AND CARED FOR HIM WHY WOULD THIS CHANGE ALL THE OTHER STUFF. HE’S USED TO A RELATIONSHIP LIKE THAT WITH MARGO, THE INTERMINGLING OF SEX AND FRIENDSHIP, BUT QUENTIN AND ALICE FELL APART AFTER SEX AND SO OF COURSE HE’D BE NERVOUS. (Did I remember that right? God I wish I could rewatch just them together. You’ll have to be my memory going forward.)ALSO WHERE HE JUST NEEDS A HUG AND HE SPECIFICALLY ASKS FOR ONE FROM Q. LIKE QUENTIN HAS ALWAYS BEEN A SOURCE OF COMFORT.
P.S. The fact that I was blind to all this should tell you how dumb I was.
AND ELIOT ASKED Q TO TOUCH HIS BUTT. But it comes off the back of him saying, you can’t touch a king without his permission, pls hug me Q. Yeah, it’s to break the tension, to bring back the ease between them, but it shows that what Eliot said was true, he bonds quickly and time is an illusion. BUT, he’s also selective about who he bonds to. He doesn’t want Penny to touch his butt, or Alice, or Josh. Just Q. Maybe Margo if he can’t sleep and he needs her to hold his butt, IDK. I just imagine that’s what she’d do for him.
AND OH MY, OT, it reminds me of when Margo says after 2 months without dick she sounds like Quentin, but it could also be she sounds like Quentin after he’s had no dick in 2 months. (It’s canon that Q thinks people should think about dicks)
AND SOMETHING ELSE THAT’S BEEN BUGGING ME. Alice says that Q is the one she loves and he leans in to accept her kiss BUT he doesn’t say anything back. During Under Pressure, his part that he’s singing with her is about two hearts separated and that could be about them but it could just as easily be about him and El.
None of what I’m saying has relevance to what you’re saying which is probably why I’m the Eliot to your Q. You’re talking about horcruxing and I’m over here whore-crotching.
