You know what I need to focus on?

Mental health

You know what I don’t focus enough on? 

Mental health

You know what I want to start to focus more on?

Mental health

Face Mask

Used a face mask as something to allow me to interact with my face in a different way and to avoid picking. 

Bracelets

Started making little friendship bracelets with embroidery thread. It gives me something to do with my hands which distracts me and reduces my anxiety :)

Trichotillomania

I've spent hours at a time hair-pulling. It feels like a trance where all of my millions of thoughts flow in and I don't really pay to much attention to what I'm doing. I end always anxious, sometimes with disgust and anger and pure sadness. I cry over both the time lost and questioning why I did it again. I've been pull-free for weeks at a time and there's been times where I forget that I do it. Actually, every day it isn't really a thought in my mind but it's something that I resort back to doing. I hate to say it, but it kind of just happens. Like I'm stressed out about something or just need time to myself. 

I read that it's most present in isolation. Makes sense. It's usually something that I do, feel regrets about, and then don't think about it until I do it again. The reason why I have finally paid enough attention to it to admit that there is something wrong about doing it is when a girl recently posted a time-lapse video of her transformation with head hair trichotillomania. Although I do not pull hair from the same area, it made me realized once again that there was a name to this thing. I've come across the term on tumblr before and never put much thought to it, either not wanting to admit that what I was doing was this serious or assuming that the term only applied to pulling head hair.

I don't know where I am right now with this. But I'm thinking of joining an online support group. 

As a side note, I read that there are connections between this and OCD symptoms, but that it is also similar to a tic disorder.