Cycle of my emotions
2:50pm, June 2014
thoughts at 2am
The real question is did I not show signs before the age of three or does nobody remember if I did or not
Because my brother was diagnosed around then. I was 7 at the time. My mom says that she first noticed things when I was 7 because I had so many of the same symptoms.
I’m this close from just straight up crying but I can’t do that in from of the guy who evaluated me specifically because he doesn’t think I’m autistic
I have places to go, I have school that’s going to happen, I have people that care about me, and I want to die
Supposedly not autistic because I didn’t show signs before age 3
I hate this I hate this I hate this
kinda wish I was dead but I don’t have the guts to do anything about it so I’m just gonna continue crying and eating bread
*isolates myself* perfect! but why am i sad
I’M TRYING TO CONCENTRATE BUT I JUST CAN’T
AM I REALLY THIS STUPID???