I miss having strong connections with other women. For most of my life all my friends had been female. It feels like the older I get, the more tension there is between me and women my age. It's like they look at me in suspicion or contempt by default and I have to prove them otherwise -and I'm just too tired to prove myself to anyone at this time in my life.
Oh, to be sung of a Summer... 🌞
Flying down from a high
She is gone, and then appears
From the water's edge
Woman of a thousand years
I don't want to invalidate anyone's precious feelings but us white women who are upset need to stop making specific movements with a specific purpose about our emotional wellbeing. Do what you gotta do to take care of yourself, but god damn the world does not need to attest to our personal unraveling. It's tactless and just looks entitled. This shit isn't helping anyone. All it does is protect your own feelings.
It's been well over a year since I started taking lessons from my current guitar instructor and my barriers are finally starting to come down. It feels so nice to be casual around someone you respect, especially a teacher. I'm no longer as afraid of failing and can let myself make mistakes because the point is that I'm here to learn, goddamit. Hopefully I can start going to lessons in person again sometime soon.
Bob Welch is naturally mellow and doesn't take himself too seriously while Lindsey Buckingham is a fucking mad lad who is willing to die on any hill, no matter how small, for his music. I love them both so much. 😭
This is from my last birthday in September. Pretty soon I'll finally be able to take this baby home. 🤩 I've waiter for her for so long. 😩💕 This particular one sold but I'm talking to one of the employees to see if they can order one while everythings going on and shit.
It was my New Year's resolution to learn how to style my own hair. Will we see... 👀👀👀 if practice makes perfect? 👁👁
I hate myself and I know hating myself is unproductivd and is sabotaging my life I need help
Gettin drunk on the cusp of another breakdown wasnmt a good idea but what yhe fuck else am I supposed to do when I feel this way
I was just on a call with a hotline. Haven't done that since like, oh god- maybe when I was first diagnosed with depression. All my friends and family know I'm going through a depressive episode as well as consistent (and constant) anxiety. Nothing I can tell someone about how I feel is something I haven't expressed over and over and over. I've let my illnesses take control of my entire personality before and it drove people away. I don't want to repeat the same mistake but lately I find more often that I have nothing else on my mind but the pain I am feeling. Bless the hotline worker, but I couldn't find any comfort talking with them. The future looks so hopeless in my eyes. Taking it day by day is how I keep going. Unfortunately, I am so unprepared for adulthood because all I've done is survive. My fear of the future just increases as I get older. Doing the most I can just isn't enough. For now, I'll go to bed and wake up the next day. That's all I got.
I hate entitled Evangelicals who think preaching to/converting homeless people on the street is in any way helpful to this disenfranchised population. My cousin fucking does this. What's worse is that he set up a fundraiser for his own personal expenses (rent, utilities, tuition, ect.) when he could easily be supported by his family. Most of the donations are from his own mother. There is no real financial strain in his life. The cherry on top is that Jesus apparenrly told him to not look for a job because he needs to focus of following his spiritual path. The fuck?
Thought I'd share the binder I use for guitar lessons. : ) The front is the booklet from Liz Phair's first two albums and the back is a Fleetwood Mac fest with a lovely Christine postcard made by @fleetwoodmacarthistory
I've been so emotionally unstable lately. It feels as if I haven't been taking my meds but I have. All this random bursting into tears and fits of rage/paranoia is making me worry I'll spiral and make the crazy decision to NOT cope. But for now, I'm coping. I'm not feeling well in any sense but I'm coping.
I've had a long, but very nice day 🥀
I know every artist working hard to aquire a skill will inevitably plateau now and again. My fear is that I'm plateauing and will stay that way. Sometimes I feel no matter how much time I dedicate to guitar I am unable to progress. There's not that many things I enjoy as much as playing guitar, but it can be discouraging.
One of the worst things to come out of stan culture is the focus on mainstream success. We all want our favorite artists to do well, but this worship of the hyper capitalist music industry is troubling. It's all "flop" this and "flop" that. Independence and the ability to take risks and experiment is looked down upon when it was once celebrated. Trying something new and falling short is now the worst thing an artist can do. It feels like we stopped listening to music for the sake of it. Instead we're shifting more and more towards seeing music as only a product.
