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writing is just signing up to emotionally hurt yourself for fun, and if that’s not dedication idk what is

Pros of re-reading your own fic

Cons of re-reading your own fic:

*You have to write the damn thing first 😤

writing is great because i get to control the chaos, unlike my real life.

Well if that ain't the damn truth...

reblog if you're a writer but would rather drink straight cyanide than show any of your family members your work

LOL like I could stop my mother!!

My bio sister is largely responsible for getting STARFISH on the interwebs, she threatened me with serious bodily injury if I didn't. She then told my mother, who told her coworkers, who are now my first-ever fans.

STOP BEING SELF CONSCIOUS ABOUT YOUR CREATIONS STOP SECOND GUESSING WHAT YOU REALLY WANNA DO STOP DEBATING IT'S WORTH. LET YOUR ART SERVE YOU INSTEAD OF THE OTHER WAY AROUND

I'M TRYING 😭

It's just difficult because I'm trying something new. I've never written a 'dark' romance before and I have some VERY specific goals (writing a dark romance that ISN'T abusive or toxic but is still kind of fucked-up on the surface, writing some really scary shit without glorifying or romanticizing it, and just getting real good and nasty with it 😉) that are going to be really challenging for me. In a good way - I've read some INCREDIBLE books that HAD to be ten times as hard to write as they were to read, and I can't imagine the authors didn't spend many nights lying awake, staring at the ceiling and wondering "What the HELL is wrong with me? What am I even DOING? Am I insane? Do I need therapy or a lobotomy??"

Sometimes I wonder if I should start drinking 🍸

I think part of my hesitation is due to my inexperience in the genre, my concern that I won't do it 'right', and my anxieties around not having the experiences I'm planning to write about - I've never purposefully committed a crime, I've never been friendly with dangerous people, I've never been to space (nor do I plan to - space is TERRIFYING) and I've never endured the kind of treatment my main girl has. I'm going to have to make up a LOT of stuff on the fly and keep track of it, and I'm going to have to learn even more about stuff I've never been exposed to like organized crime and hands-on technical fixes. On top of all that, I'll need to walk a fine line between "this is so fucked-up" and "ohhhh this is HOT!"

The other thing is that I'm already a 'published' author and I feel like I have some high standards to meet and exceed. STARFISH is still my best work so far, IMO, and I still feel like The Dragon Prince's Consort didn't quite deliver the same quality. I learned a lot from it, but there's a part of me that isn't really happy with how I wrote the last third of the story. Some of that can be attributed to the fact that I was rushing things a bit, and some of it was because I had started a new job which ate up a LOT of my mental and emotional bandwidth. Since I took over for my mentor, though, I've been running things pretty smoothly so I'm hoping that my brain will come back to me soon. (Also fuck ADHD and anxiety - I'm told that going back to the gym will help)

In the meantime, I just have to keep trying. It doesn't matter how many times I have to re-start, re-write and re-structure, I can do this as many times as it takes. My Beloved Husband is FULLY supportive of me and my goals, so I have that in my corner 💜 So, I soldier on. You can't edit a draft that doesn't exist, and a shitty draft can be made un-shitty. Besides, writing is one of those things that both keeps me sane and lets me be completely unhinged so I'm not going to let a little difficulty stop me from doing it. I'm too goddamn stubborn for that 😃

reblog if you believe fanfics are as valid as books that were published and sold by authors who write as their main careers. I'm trying to prove a point

Mert me behind the Waffle House if you disagree. 9 pm, bring your own mourners.

“What if my writing isn’t good enough” write it out of spite (for those negative thoughts) because there is something called improvement which can only be achieved by, you guessed it, writing

one day, someone is going to simp for my favourite oc harder than me, and i will no longer be a one-woman act in this fanclub

*manifest manifest manifest manifest manifesting SO HARD RIGHT NOW*

Ooooooo this is gonna be FUN

i want nothing else but to be famous for my writing so people will make incorrect quotes posts for my characters and start shipping the ones I never intended to be together

Actually I would find that hilarious

Deleting whole paragraphs from my manuscript is the emotional equivalent of stabbing myself in the chest.

And sometimes it's the best thing you can do 💝

my apologies for this one in advance

Currently mad at myself because I have creative bottleneck 😡

I wanted to get started on this new project so bad but I had to finish The Dragon Prince's Consort first, so now I have ALL the ideas crammed up in a corner where I made myself ignore them for MONTHS and they all want out at once.

This is the magic lucky word count. Reblog for creativity juice. It might even work, who knows.

Just started a new wip, I need dis

i swear all writers are mentally ill. y'all keep putting your "beloved" characters through the most traumatic experiences ever just to feel something.

That's not entirely true - yes we are mentally ill but we keep putting our babies through it because we're traumatized and we all want to see that it's possible to get through it ourselves. We're Google Maps-ing our own way through the pain like a messed-up dress-rehearsal.

W R I T E

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So, my problem in writing is not being able to finish anything.

What do you all do to get yourself to finish a story or something you're writing?

Pray. To whom? Don't worry about it.

To everyone who writes one continuous document

How do you know where your plot points are?? How do you know where to find the name of that one guy seventeen chapters ago when you don't have chapter breaks?? HOW DO YOU EVEN WORK LIKE THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA