warning: it is a picture of kinchan in a diaper.. please only click if you are comfortable with this.. ;; if you do not want to see it, that is completely okay! ;;-;;
the experience of having so much expectation and pressure on him, and then to be watched and judged and talked about as entertainment by the whole world, was just very very overwhelming for him and he's emotionally very ill from it. ;;
he's doing this bc it sort of feels comforting and like a relief or escape when he feels overwhelmed ;; he wants to be comforted and not have to do what people tell him to do ;;; he's grateful if someone would accept it and let him do this bc it feels like he doesn't have to be pushed to do what someone else wants ;;