@soullessserenity

@melda0m3

AAAAAAA I AM SO HAPPY YOU THINK KITTY AKOYA IS ADORABLE OMG!!! 🥺🥺🥺 IM SO HAPPY YOU SAW HIM!!! \>/////</💕💕💕 and you noticed!! all the parts of him that are adorable!! ;;////;; it is so cute how you name them all, i am so happy you think his big eyes and little bell are both adorable!! >////< he is very touched you fnd his big floofy hair/fur beautiful 🥺🥺🥺 I AM SO HONORED i could heal your soul and bless you with this art waaaa?!!! it makes me so happy it meant that much to you!! ;;/////;; thank you so much for blessing me with all these sweet and kind words omg!!! \>/////</

@steelydan

!!!!! OHHHH!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 I DIDN'T EXPECT SOMEONE WOULD BE SO EXCITED TO SEE THIS WAAAA I FEEL SO HAPPY!!! \>/////</ i-it means so much to me you think he's so cute here oh my goshhh!!!! 😭😭😭 it seriously made me so happy that your kind comment popped up right after i posted it! 😭😭😭 i never thought someone would think he was this cute, your enthusiasm makes me so happy! thank you so much!!! /)//////(\💕💕💕

@kjellyjelly

oh!! ;;////;; i am so happy you think this is so beautiful omg!! kittykoya is so honored by such solemn praise!! 🥺🥺🥺 he is also very honored that you gave this a kittykoya tag just for him!! >/////< thank you so much!! he feels very loved and treasured omg!!! \;;/////;;/💖💖💖

@talisman975

@silvormoon

?!!!! OH MY GOSH LEAVING TAGS FOR KITTYKOYA THAT'S SO CUTE WAAAA?!!! \;;/////;;/ THIS IS SO CUTE!!!! ;;/////;; LEAVING TAGS FOR KITTYKOYA IS SO CUTE!!!! \>/////</ AND SO NICE OF YOU TO DO WAAAA!!! ;;/////;; kittykoya is very surprised!! and now he is very fascinated with the tags, he will not stop staring at them!! ;;/////;; he is so happy someone left a message just for him!! /)/////(\ he is thinking now about how he is very cute! he will keep thinking about this always!! /)/////(\💕💕💕 thank you so much for leaving cute tags for kittykoya waaa!!! \>/////</

@ibusukiss

waaaa thank you for looking at the kittyyyy!!! ;;/////;; i am so happy he looks so fuwa fuwa to you, this sounds so cute!!! \>/////</ thank you so much for saying hi to the kitty omg!! ;;w;;

@koolkitty9

🥺🥺 KITTYKOYA IS SO HAPPY YOU LOVE HIM OMG /)/////(\ thank you so much for understanding kitty has to keep their fur clean!!! \>////</ i love that you knew what kittyjiya was doing right away, he feels so loved!!! 🥺 of course you would know bc you have three cat babies!! kittykoya would be honored to be considered one too 🥺 he is very touched you care for him so much omg!! ;;////;; he wants to be very careful and keep you safe!

warning: it is a picture of kinchan in a diaper.. please only click if you are comfortable with this.. ;; if you do not want to see it, that is completely okay! ;;-;;

the experience of having so much expectation and pressure on him, and then to be watched and judged and talked about as entertainment by the whole world, was just very very overwhelming for him and he's emotionally very ill from it. ;;

he's doing this bc it sort of feels comforting and like a relief or escape when he feels overwhelmed ;; he wants to be comforted and not have to do what people tell him to do ;;; he's grateful if someone would accept it and let him do this bc it feels like he doesn't have to be pushed to do what someone else wants ;;

i didn't have a social experience in high school irl, bc i had communication difficulties and withdrew from everyone. i still felt like a child when i left high school.

for a long time, it felt like something had gone wrong in high school and i kept mentally returning to that period of my life over and over. that was when my gender dysphoria started, and i became afraid of people. through this fandom, living through these characters, it was like i was able to have that growing-up experience i didn't have in high school. making up stories and sharing them online were how i connected and communicated with people. the stories i told weren't real, the situations didn't really happen (although they often were based on real events and real feelings), but the interactions i had with people through them were real. the way people reacted to imaginary scenarios i presented, and the way i reacted back to them, gave me an understanding of how to interact with people, of how to have and maintain real relationships. i learned that i had to ask people before talking about certain things, and respect it and not bring it up if they said no. i learned that i had to communicate how i felt and wanted to be treated. it was hard to learn, and in the public space of the internet it was often overwhelming, bc it often felt like i was trying to have a personal relationship with many many strangers all at once. the relationship model i was raised with was to not express myself, to do as i was told, and to go along with others to be polite. the relationship model the internet gave me was to say something, and then just wait while anyone else said anything they wanted to me. it often made me feel terrified and helpless. but that is how i learned. to stand up for myself, to express myself, to be a person. and i'll always think of this fandom as a formative experience, as my growing-up experience. when i fell into this fandom, i didn't understand why. i felt like i was wasting my time. but i realize now that this would have happened one way or another. im grateful for all the kindness i received here. im grateful to have been able to share things here i felt like i couldn't anywhere else. im grateful that i loved akoya ;;;; and i am so thankful to all the people who loved my little akoyas as well, all of these years;;; ;;~~~;;💖💖💖

@aliennyx22

O-O!!! thank you for looking at them with such big eyes omg!! ;;w;; i am very happy to receive such a reaction!1 ;;w;;

@raihanstrapinch

IM SO HONORED OMG!!! \>/////</ thank you so much for exclaiming this with so much excitement waaaa!!! ;;//////;; you are so kind to leave such a sweet comment, i am super touched you would see it this way!!! \>/////</