I feel so helpless & confused & upset about too many things that I know are so little. How do I become like You?

I hope & pray that your life is content.

I feel like a broken record, but that's what being patient is, understanding that even though You wait to reveal an answer, I have a duty to keep going & keep praying. 

Freedom is big & real & good.

I'm on the mend. I will work to lean into God, because He is worth leaning into.

I will root myself in Christ. I will. I will. I have to. I don't want to root myself in jealousy or longing for something else. Not in pride or bitterness. No, in Christ. I don't want a life You don't want for me.

You use anything & everything. Why am I so worried about specifics? God has never been worried about that.

God's little gifts are liberating.

Things will be different one day. I will move to higher ground someday.

Not everything has to be explained.

I need faith that runs so deep in creates grooves on your insides. Shallow waters are fun to wade in, but they do not clean you off.

I am trying to gain new perspective, to step into joy, to grow in the Lord in a different way than I have before this point. I have been growing in very important ways that are difficult & slow. But I think there is joy in the Lord I haven't been able to experience until now? Because I am working out my salvation with fear & trembling.

I am going to be okay. I just. I know I'm going to be okay. I am. Little heart, this is going to be okay. Do your best. Keep moving.

Go sit at His feet & listen to Him, spend time with Him. Don't get caught in details. Don't get caught working, & get bitter about what you're missing. Go sit at his feet.

an old journal entry

It is so hard to let go. God, please protect me as I try & become something else.