@resignedseraph / resignedseraph.tumblr.com
yk, being socially betrayed by the people I grew up around by losing contact with them entirely once covid started, was if anything kinda vindicating for me, because I'd been tuning out suspicions that they didn't care about me as much as they said for years at that point
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Okay apparently there was this big complex in my mind about age and being under twenty that I didn’t even notice until now, it’s like my mind let a breath out that it was holding for years (baffling)
It’s like my brain finally realized I’m safe actually, and older adults can’t “reasonably” fuck around with me and get off scott free. How did I even get that idea in my head?
Yoooo nice
[ID: follower count reading 500. /End ID]
Really no wonder a lot of religiously traumatized people who grew up Christian display some elements of a disorganized attachment style, being told God was their Father as well
Watching Jesus Camp finally and it's pretty wild how much *isn't* different from the camps I grew up going to. The main difference is the charismatic nature, and it's a tiny bit more nationalistic. Everything else is about the same
Shoutout to all the stories I had growing up that weren't worldly enough to be banned, and that were a good influence behind it all that I can still feel. I'm feeling super sappy about them tonight
I should watch the Venom movies now that I'm not thirteen and in a cult
Raise your hand if despite what everyone always said about god helping them through impossible hurdles and challenges, you’ve never been helped by god in a way that’s clear it’s him ✋😐
Christians: [use the c slur] ["sins of the father"] [don't make services accessible] [scold kids in Sunday school for being "odd"] [use the c slur] [expect disabled people to miraculously be healed] [treat intellectually disabled people like children] [only treat disabled kids semi-decently while they're skill kids] [use the c slur]
Christians: oh no why aren't there any visibly disabled adults around here who we can use as a testament to Christ's healing love!
Me and my brother listening to my mom talk about more details of material problems she now has to deal with thanks to her aging parents like:
[ID: two ms paint reaction images. Lined up they show two people with very concerned faces across from each other. /End ID]
IT’S SOOOO FUCKING DIRE GUYS AHA
One of the things that came out of purity culture and youth group was “purpling,” which is shorthand for straight sex or even just getting too close to each other. It goes with the analogy that girls have a pink box and boys have a blue box, and you don’t want the boxes to overlap and be purple
However, this says nothing about boxes of the same color overlapping, and my youth group was full of little shits who were not above acting gay to stick to a bit, so we decided to toe the hell out of the line of that analogy as soon as possible
[ID: a comic in which a male youth group leader announces in the first panel, “Alright kids! No purpling!” In response, the group of kids separate into assigned genders. In the “girls” group two of them start giving the third kisses on the cheek, and in the “boys” group one of them hops into the others’ arms. One arrow pointing to a kid reads, “not even a girl,” and another pointing to a boy reads, “straight.” They all have smug cat faces. The youth group leader’s face droops and he thinks to himself, “I’m going to have to come up with new words huh…” /End ID]
In response my youth group leaders started adding on, “No pinking or blueing either!!” when they eventually had to acknowledge what we were doing, which sounds even sillier and was exactly what we were going for. I don’t even think most of us who were doing this were actually queer lmfao
Hmmmm… with the amount of procedure and (for a lack of a better term) ritual there was back then, it makes me think “oh okay so they would have the thought and means to enforce something worse” you know?
But it’s also hard for me to properly analyze how it was back then because I know my perception was influenced by my mindset at the time and what I knew.
*squints* Yet again questioning programming even though there’s no external implications for it that we can see
Like maybe we just don’t know enough about the grey areas of what that can look like, so it’s hard to recognize it! Idk, the very specific jobs some of us have though, and specific mindsets about things regarding their purpose and what’s supposed to happen, idk it makes me think
Although!!! We do still have that indication that we may have been through that, as evidenced from a line from a dream we had post cult but before we knew anything about any of this, even how PTSD worked or what abuse actually was
*squints* Yet again questioning programming even though there’s no external implications for it that we can see
Who wants to talk about borderline alterhuman identity acquired through cult socialization and separation of the self from human identity at an early age
0 notes lets gooooo
Like what do you even call it when you grow up being told that people were created as souls with physical bodies made by God, but then one of them fucked up and so now our physical bodies (which can influence our souls) are marred by this thing called sin nature, otherwise known as human nature. Which of course implies that human nature, ie the concept of humanity itself, isn't a necessary aspect of your identity and true self. And then you're taught that it won't even be influencing the thing that makes you You forever anyway, because you're going to live forever as a perfect soul as God originally intended once you're done with this human life.
So you know, you end up well into your early development, fully believing that and having that enforced by everyone around you. What do you even all that. You're physically human but socially? Is your You human? Well, that's up for debate I guess
[heavy warning for extreme abuse talk]
continued (same warning, please be careful if this topic could be triggering):
Wait does this just mean I'm full time roleplaying as my humansona JFHGMGJBGNJB
