Wild how hearing that one of my cousins is trying out being a verbally aggressive homophobe/transphobe isn’t something that really phases me, but hearing my immediate family passionately argue over that is something I’m trying to block out with music as best I can because I know it’ll trigger me
#Esrah talks#I’m not even sure what they’re arguing about exactly! I’m just blocking it out with punk music#I understand that it’s not something I can actually ask to be changed since it’s sort of beyond the control of people involved#but I really wish tough discussions weren’t escalated to the ultimate moral conclusions and implications possible#and then *those* are argued about#I think the question is about conflicting needs and specifically me and said cousin#but no! instead of actually involving *me* in it the three of them are just arguing in the other room#I’m not even getting involved#if they wanna discuss that and make a huge fuss instead of letting me think about it they can do that#whatever#negative#vent#homophobia mention#transphobia mention#family chronicles