Wanted to write down some stuff about my first Durge
Ilona (they/them), Dark Urge
Race: human? Probably human
Age: 26 although they don't remember this. Their companions assume they're the youngest at camp, a combo of their chubby baby face and behaving immaturely.
Class: Oathbreaker Paladin
Personality: Orin did a real number on them. Friendly, cheerful, and sweet if you can look past the horrors. Very high charisma just as you’d expect from a cult leader. Painfully lonely making them rather clingy to those they’re close to. They’re naive and easily manipulated by attention and validation. They have a bit of a temper and are often very stubborn.
Romance: Astarion. They’re partners in crime, twin flames, they see each other and they’re healing together. At first they were just an easy target for Astarion, desperate for his attention and easily swayed by his approval. They’re not sure why they were so drawn to him but something about him felt so familiar and comforting, to them it was love at sight. They win him over with their friendship and unrelenting trust in him. They not only protect him, but rely on him just as much. He knows they need him just as much as he needs them.
The Urge: At first it controls them completely, their mind a blank slate with nothing but the urge. However, slowly as they regain a sense of self through their journey and friends they begin to resist. In the past they’ve needed a lot of “guidance” from Fel, their urge used by Bhaal to punish and control them. They long to be free and refuse Bhaal in the end.
Some little facts: They’re a little chubby and very sensitive about it. They have a bit of a drinking problem. They have pretty bad anxiety from well everything. They never learned how to read. They adore children and animals. At one point they had a pet cat named Slaughter, Slaughter didn’t last long. They really love their family, especially Saravok. They’ve always wanted to learn necromancy. They’re the reason Balthazar is so protective of his chambers. It was their idea to recruit Goblins, Gnolls, and Orgers. They wear a silver locket with a small lock of black hair inside, they don't remember who's but looking at it makes them sad. Their nice camp clothes were a gift from Gortash, not that they remember.
Past: (tw: vague mention of sexual assault) They were only six when they killed their foster dads. After, they were kept confined in the temple with Fel and other worshipers always at their side, grooming them to be the perfect Bhaalspawn and one day lead the temple. They faced quite a bit of abuse at the hands of the temple. The brief moments of privacy they got they would use to sneak out of the temple. These were usually uneventful walks through the sewers and under city before they were tracked down and dragged back home.
