had to fuckin push off my service jobs today bc i got the news that my great grandma passed away last night- and ive been so fucking stressed this week that was the last straw and ive had the fuckin stress shits all day, I’m not particularly upset- i wasnt super close to her but it’s just a relatively big thing on top of the tons of little things ive been dealing with for the past two weeks and im like....
i just need to stay home and take care of myself and clean.... I only got one day off last week and it’s really getting to me ;;
#fffffff#rants about personal life on social media because i need to see my grievances written out so i can look at them and be like#'yeah that sounds like a reasonable excuse not to work today'#and validate myself lmfao#ugh#luckily i didnt have any residentials this week so they dont have set appointments#its just that now i gotta find another time to do them#and im like#hhhhg#theres only so much time left in the month#rip#rai rambles#rai rants#life of rai