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blame xkcd for the url

@raccoon-sex-dungeon / raccoon-sex-dungeon.tumblr.com

no, really sage or rose | they/them | in my screaming 20s [currently oscillating between residual spn obsession and newish d20 fixation]
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ur future nurse is using chapgpt to glide thru school u better take care of urself

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lucyaudley

Yep. This is terrifying. I’ve caught nursing majors, engineering majors, architecture majors relying on ChatGPT to do their homework. These are people who need to know their field well to ensure people don’t die and they’re letting a glorified algorithm cheat them through school. It’s so dangerous

hey. hi. I work in academia. and there are a lot of student-age folks on this site.

don't do this. don't use genAI. even if your professors give you permission. even if they ask for it or suggest it. if they do anything short of directly requiring it (and I weep, because I've already seen assignments that require it) don't touch that crap. if they do require it, stick it to them. be as maliciously compliant as possible. be a nightmare.

I know it might sound easier right now -- just plug in your assignment and get the answers. you don't care about this class anyway, it's not for your major, you don't see the value of the assignment.

but for your own sake, for the sake of your education and mind, and for the sake of the future world we want to have: learn the stuff. you are not as stupid as the corporate bizzaro kings who want to rule the world think you are, so don't give them reasons to believe it.

and odds are good genAI is gonna give you corrupted info anyway -- more and moreso as the machines cannibalize themselves.

just don't do it. not even "I just do it for XYZ--" no. stop. there is no valid use of generative AI, and even using it for memes or lolz feeds the system and directly feeds the pockets of the people who want to replace you anyway.

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aaaaaadhd

Rage reblogging this. Yesterday i got into an argument with one of my college friends who is using chatGPT to do all her work. We're psychology students. The whole group chat laughed my arguments off as if they didn't matter because "she's an artist, of course she's anti-AI" and i had to deal with it. This is a warning. If your therapist graduated in 2023/2024, ask about their opinions on chatGPT. They might lie to you if you ask "did you use it to graduate" directly, but try to make jokes about it and play it cool. If they're into it, DROP OFF. FIND A NEW ONE. Do not trust your brain to someone who didn't bother to use theirs.

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Quick question, I keep seeing tiktoks about college students doing this so I gotta ask

Personally I never pulled an all nighter when I was a student, I honestly thought it was a movie thing and not something students do.

bro I pulled an all-nighter at LEAST once a semester. I perfected the art of taking 20 minute power naps to recharge whenever I got too slap-happy from exhaustion.

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If I go into one more restaurant and see a qr code menu I'm gonna puke like sorry but nope! No! That's not easier! Menus are already reusuable just give me one! Easy five second interaction. What if my phone is bad at qr codes? What if I'm on a low battery? Paper, paper, paper. A hard copy. Physical objects lets get this bread. Ordering through the app when you're sitting at the restaurant is even worse!!! The boomers are right about this one.

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everyone should try to get into bugs because they fulfill all your primal needs to get Way Too Close to wildlife and hold and pet wild creatures

When you start recognizing bugs as friendly and cute little Guys, your world opens up so much.

They're easy to obtain. Do you want isopods? Just put a piece of cardboard on the ground and you will have isopods. There's a straight-up CLOUD of bees, wasps, butterflies, and flies around my Swamp Milkweed. Planting any native flower will make you so many friends. Better yet, do nothing—any somewhat overgrown area is habitat. I was hacking down some of the grasses in the Weed Area in our back yard yesterday (the non-native chicory is overpopulated and the native perennials are getting swallowed up by a Crap Ton of non-native grass) and found a enormous katydid.

I am feeling such awe and wonder over how tame and unbothered insects are in front of humans. Lots of them you can catch and hold in your hands and they will just be like oop oh well this is strange sorry to bother you and fly away.

They are so beautiful too! The COLORS. Electric blue! Iridescent green! Bright red! Every metallic shade! Rainbow! Our yard is full of dragonflies now and they've got to be one of the world's most elegant creatures.

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fenrir-kin

This is going to sound like a euphemism but oh well!

i have bees in my chimney. they're very polite, they have learned that when they fall all the way down my chimney to go to the window and I will let them out

sometimes when I wake up in the morning there will be one or two very sleepy bees on me or in the bed with me - I've gotten better at waking up gently because of this

when I first realised there were bees in the chimney I thought about sealing the chimney up but that won't stop the bees who fall down. they'll just die in the dark, not knowing what went wrong, and how awful a fate is that?

anyway I am rather attached to the bees in my chimney

This is delightful and the first two sentences sounded like a poem so I couldn't think about anything else until I wrote one

I have bees in my chimney. They're very polite.
They fall from my ceiling and sleep here all night.
I have bees in my chimney. Why not seal it with brick?
Well, my bees would be trapped. I won't play that cruel trick.
I just wake myself gently, so they won't have to sting.
And I call them Your Majesty, in case one's a Queen.
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for me an essential element of dean’s character is that there’s some unspoken part of him that always goes unresolved. like dean is someone who is heavily repressed and limited by the facts of his upbringing and his life, but for me I think that unresolved-ness goes deeper than that. that even if you were to remove him front hunting and permanently place him in a stable and loving environment, there would still be some part of dean that is in perpetual disquiet. collapsing all the tensions that hold dean together would mean collapsing the character itself. and I think where this particular disquiet resides is in the realm of his relationship to masculinity.

and I don’t mean this in a depressing way! I’ve been trying to articulate why certain fanon trends don’t really do much for me personally without sounding like a spoil sport. but I find the popular interpretation of dean as transmasc un-compelling FOR ME PERSONALLY because for me transness has always been about self actualisation. It was like the missing puzzle piece in my life finally slotted into place and I no longer interacted with the world through a haze of existential confusion. my “problem” was, in a word, resolved when I discovered I was trans.

but back to dean. this tension of dean clearly having something vaguely wrong with him and covering it up by trying to be The Perfect Son is such a fundamental component of who he is that, even in an ideal scenario (be it post-canon or alt canon or what have you) where dean is living the normal life he wants to live, there’s just something about him that still feels slightly out of reach. dean is a guy who is never fully at peace with himself and he has, ironically, made peace with that unease. he failed at being a son, he tends to fail pretty frequently at being a man, he failed his brother, he fails fails fails. and the “self-actualisation” component for dean that I’m partial to is one where he embraces this failure for what it is. guess I’m just a bad son! guess I just suck at being a dude! oh well! guess there’s just something wrong with me. and he doesn’t move past that. he just makes peace with that and doesn’t pick at it further.

so like the incredibly specific flavour of trans dean that I like is one where it’s always beneath the surface. it’s not a conscious thing in that he can think about it in concrete terms, it’s just this vague notion of self-otherness that doesn’t go away. he is clearly not good at being a man, and it’s certainly not for lack of trying. but manhood is what he’s used to and what he knows best, so he just keeps going through the motions of being a man because in the grand scheme of things it’s not that big a deal. small, private transgressions of gender are savoured and sporadic, taken at face value as “indulgences” and then never examined beyond that. I like the idea of dean as vaguely nonbinary but he himself isn’t aware of it. it’s always unresolved.

I feel like I’m still not explaining myself well lol. I just personally can’t conceive of dean as someone who goes through big revelations about his identity because a core part of his identity is the fact that he will always be a try-hard and he’ll never quite know why - he did everything his father ever asked of him and it still wasn’t good enough, so it must be something deeper than feeling or reason (the truth of course being that john withheld approval as a form of control, but also dean couldn’t ever be what his dad wanted anyway because he’s not that kind of man). and that informs not only his relationship with other men but also his relationship with his own masculinity. this disquiet with his own manhood hangs eternally suspended, unspoken but present in his life, this almost comforting constant of yeah lol I guess I’m just weird. oh well. he’s not out and proud, nor is he ashamed, it just is what it is.

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icantleave

a drawing of the angel Benjamin from spn that I made last year for @transnaturalzine. Check out their leftover sale if you still haven't!

please click on the picture for better quality. it got blurred

Benjamin is one of my favourite side characters who unfortunately didn't get enough screen time for his story. His vessel didn't even have a name on screen which sucks. It's okay tho because I can now think of any headcanons and they technically can't be wrong))

This drawing was made with markers on paper and then finished digitally (the face and some shiny parts). The original idea was to draw a person who is way more inside that you can see when you look at their body. Something different and bright. Angels are an excellent metaphor for that. I have no idea how it looks on a picture out of the context from my head tho, hah

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Dean should've had one thumbnail painted at all times.

YES. Also this girlfriend was either Robin or Rhonda Hurley. At any rate a sharpie is easier to explain away than a bottle of nail polish. Sharpie can also be smudged off enough to look like motor oil or something similar when dad comes back without warning three days later than he promised. And a thumb can be hidden inside his fist in a pinch. It's his quiet little rebellion and memorial to a girl he was supposed to use and discard and forget.

When John is dead he buys a sharpie in a color other than black and uses that for a bit.

When he gets back from Hell he buys a tiny bottle of polish in a shimmery white-blue color that mesmerizes him for no reason he can name. He never can bring himself to use it but it lives in a side pocket of his duffel, rolled up in a pair of socks, shimmering in the dark. He always knows it's there.

When he gets back from Purgatory he spends a long time scrubbing his hands and under and around his nails, determined to get every last speck of blood and grime. When his nails are clean at last he buys a bottle of clear polish and paints them all with careful strokes with the bathroom door locked.

When Charlie sleeps over she paints his toenails pink, purple, and blue. He likes the color combination. He wears it until it chips away on its own and never lets Sam see him barefoot until it does.

He wears the clear polish until Jack comes back from Jody's showing off black fingernails with tiny sigils drawn in white and red on each one, courtesy of Claire and Alex. He begs Dean to take him to the store for some nail polish, and Dean goes only a little reluctantly, old fears making him tense and protective as Jack picks out the colors he likes from the tiny beauty section of a small-town Kansas CVS. And if he slips in a deep blue for himself, no one has to know.

When god is just a slob like one of us and the world is saved and Cas is back, Dean sits at the kitchen table and paints his thumbnails deep blue. He likes the way it looks with polish, shiny instead of dull like a sharpie. He loves the way it matches Cas's eyes when Dean holds his face in both hands and presses kisses to his lips like he's making up for lost time. Not just the twelve years between them, but all the years they both spent alone before they knew each other.

On their honeymoon, he's barefoot almost all the time. His toes stick up out of the hole in the sand he's dug with his heels, each one painted a delicate seashell pink.

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aroacedean

This is a joke about how people describe the colour of Cas' eyes actually

AHHHHHHHH BESTIE I LOVE THIS.

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frogstiel

I think the thing that makes current actors much worse and feel a lot faker and look a lot weirder (constantly buff and ripped and perfect) is that like. men currently perform masculinity a LOT more and a lot more intensely than actor men in the 70s 80s 90s did. u would not catch a modern actor DEAD in skin-tight jeans on screen because then he’s gay automatically and that is a character type not allowed in modern media. in the 70s 80s etc u would not catch an actor man dead on screen WITHOUT tight little pants and a flowy loose shirt on!! and the outfit didn’t matter bc the outfit and presentation do not make the man, the writing does that. the characterization put in place by the actor does that. but actors are not allowed to have input anymore and scripts are not allowed to be good and so men on screens are the most boring weird buff people in the world and it SUCKS

like it feels like in current media masculinity IS the performance instead of part OF the performance. which makes all other aspects that COULD be part of the performance flat and dull and fall to the side

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Every time I think about the entry level job paradox my head feels like it’s gonna explode.

Whenever I think about all the people that didn’t hire me to be a busser because I didn’t have any restaurant experience even though it’s the lowest ranking job in the restaurant I feel a dangerous urge to strangle a hiring manager.

Some internships ask for experience. Internships. You know. The places you’re supposed to get experience? Those things? I wanna eat a door.

Quite frankly I don’t know how anyone gets into any industry. Any of them. Office workers must just spawn like minecraft mobs or something.

That’s capitalism baby!

Let me explain:

I’m a professional animator who actually works in the field. And my uni professors would tell us that there has been a disturbing and terrible shift in the industry in many ways but allow me to explain this one in particular.

So the “experience” thing comes from the death of company training. Back in the day if I wanted to become an animator I’d approach a studio, show them my drawings and say “I want to be an animator will you teach me so I can work for you until I die?” And if my drawings were good enough, and my desire sincear the company would put me into the lowest paying shittiest job they had. Cleaning cells, polishing the cogs of the multi plane camera, organising files, sweeping the damn floor.

And then for maybe an hour or two a day I would get to sit with one of the animators and they would show me a little of what they know. I’d get training much like how I would at University except you know… I’d get paid instead of going into crippling debt.

After about three years of doing the dirty work (you know, the length of an average college course for animation) I’d get that entry level animation position. Usually an in-betweener or a cell painter. And then bing bang boom I’m on my way to working slowly through my career. And this company will want to keep me around because they’ve invested so much into me. I have bargaining power, they don’t want me going to another studio that may pay more because they trained me. So they are more likely to treat me better to incentivise that I stay.

Companies realised this and decided to switch the responsibility of training onto the employee instead of the employer. Because I have to pay tens of thousands of dollars to educate MYSELF instead of the industry educating me. I have to beg, and work for pennies, to get the experience I need to have actual value in the intustry. And because the companies have no incentive to treat me well because they have no investment in me; I can be hired and fired as they please. Oh your contract was for eight months? Too bad we blew the budget and my nephew needs another raise, you’re fired. Oh and I can’t complain, complainers get blacklisted and then nobody will hire you.

But I’m an INDEPENDENT CONTRACTOR which means I have so much FrEeDoM to do ‘w h a t e v e r’ I like… 🤮

It’s all bullshit. They industry has no entry level positions because they want to choke you, they want to strangle the workforce and make them submit. It’s now your responsibility to suck cock, tearfully beg and lie on your resume just to get an unpaid internship where you’re worked like a donkey and don’t you dare complain about it.

And the most insulting lie is “oh we have more college educated kids than ever using that wonderful?” NO! NO ITS NOT!!

There were less colleague grads back in the day because not every field NEEDS a college education to be performed!! Doctors and lawyers duh, but software programmers, artists, film students, animators, fashion designers, photographers ect. All used to get their training from the companies that hired them. Even more technical fields like stock brokers, bankers, miners, mechanics, ect. Didn’t have Colleges educations they just learnt on the job.

This system was not perfect or 100% ethical but fuck it was better than the anarcho-capitalist hell scape we currently occupy.

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